was looking through the calendar for the past year for work and saw some of the various appointments and tests that I went through last year…
was a jolt to realize all the places I had to go and tests that needed to be done… all before my surgery in July…
buds on the trees March 25, 2012
it really is quite amazing how quickly we can forget some of that not-so-pleasant information…
as I sit here remembering walking through malls and stores, doing strenuous exercise like shovelling and swimming and how easy it is to do all those things now…
in the garden April 4, 2012
last year at this time, I looked like I was eight months pregnant and had to be careful about any activity so that my hernia wouldn’t get grumpy and I wouldn’t feel sick… the weather was beautiful then, we were in the garden in t-shirts and the trees were beginning to bud…
the garden this year…
today I was talking with someone and noted that I feel lighter now that we have passed the one year anniversary of George’s death… seems odd but that is how I feel… there will still be lots of things to be through, but maybe the worst is over…
herbiggirlpants 
I don’t think it ever completely goes away but that first year of empty firsts was certainly the hardest for me. I know I find, and you seem to, that there are more and more times of happy memories and fewer feelings of devastating loss. I don’t see how anyone could go on otherwise. “They” say, and I believe them, that it is easier to lose a spouse by death than divorce because at least they didn’t leave you by choice. “Time heals” may sound trite but I think it’s also true. Thinking of you, Marian
Thanks for another insightful comment Marian…