05 Saturday Apr 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
a beautiful day… had a lovely nap in the warm sunshine this afternoon…
the neighbour had his motorcycle out…
when I was outside, in my bare feet on the deck, putting chemicals in the hot tub, I could hear the snow melting from the garage roof… you can actually see the snow melting away…
had windows open for the first time for a good portion of the day… very nice…
just had a wonderful hot tub… finally the temperature feels like Spring…
wondering when all the snow will be gone…
03 Thursday Apr 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
this morning I put out two large bags and two boxes filled with pass-me-overs…
it is always so great when you can let go of stuff you don’t need…
I’d been gathering bits and pieces for a few months but hadn’t dealt with the collection… now I feel a bit lighter…
of course there is still tons of stuff to sort and pass along to others…
I hope they came this morning as this afternoon the snow came down again, can’t believe it…
02 Wednesday Apr 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
tonight I stopped and picked up some fish and chips, which I have been craving for weeks… didn’t even put away my things when I got home… it was delicious…
have been really down for a while and it wasn’t until tonight when a friend called that I realized what the problem was…
another friend is turning 65 on Friday and tonight their family were having a come-and-go to celebrate…
when the invitation arrived I faced the fact that George would have been 65 last December… it didn’t mean much at the time, but this celebration kind of kicked me in the gut… don’t get me wrong, I’m glad our friend is having a great special birthday, but I’ve been stuck in my own pain…
we were invited to add a note to an online card and include a picture of our family… didn’t know what to do about that either… should the picture be of my family now or what my family used to be… In the end I sent a picture of our group… that seemed to take care of the request, but I am still trying to figure out who my family is…
things seem so mixed up right now… April second and the garden is filled with snow… I remember the year George died and how we were out working in the garden raking the grass in the middle of March, just a few weeks after…
apparently, you never know what will bring on the pain… as another friend said, likely I will have days like this for the rest of my life… hopefully they will come less often as time goes by…
01 Tuesday Apr 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
Tags
in the process of decluttering, I came across some sheet music books and the lovely recipe book from our cruise last May/June…
took them to work to share with my colleagues… always easier to let something go if you know it will have a good home…
reminded me of what a great time we had on the cruise and all the new experiences and fun we had…
just heard about my income taxes and I only owe a few hundred dollars this year… much less than last year when we had to file for George as well…
missing my beloved so much… some days it feels as though the pain is more than I can handle…
need to focus on the positives… like the fact that I actually finished the hallway shelves…
31 Monday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
wow, last night was my 500th blog post…
amazing… someone from Cambodia looked at it today…
now I have over a hundred followers… not many by others’ standards, but it feels like a big number to me…
it is always exciting when another person likes or starts to follow my blog, lol…
30 Sunday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
Tags
well, just got home from the Junos at the MTS Centre downtown…
there were a lot of people there…
we arrived about twenty minutes before it started and it was easy to get in…
it was great fun to be part of the “behind the scenes” action… to see what happens while the commercials are on… to see the cameras and teleprompters, the people running around after each act, mopping down the floors to be sure they were safe for everyone…
the Jennifer Jones team got a standing ovation when they were announced as presenters… Chris Hadfield was cool and also got an ovation… he sang a few lines of a BTO song before he introduced them…
many performers there whose music I knew, mainly from my driving in the car and listening to the radio…
the finale with a couple of younger bands joining BTO on the stage for Taking Care of Business was a great ending…
then we just had to get out through all the people, but the girls made sure we made it safely… even though we waited a bit, there were big crowds going the same direction as we were…
a memory to add to my collection…
29 Saturday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
Tags
album, brother, family photo, good feeling, McLeod House, Mom and Dad, pictures, Tea
this afternoon I was finishing up the hall bookshelves and spent a few minutes going through a photo album because some pictures were falling out of it…
came across a picture of my mom and dad with my brother and I…
I have that bracelet somewhere around here…
my dad died in the late 80s and mom a year later… my brother a few years after that… I was amazed how mad I was when he died… we hadn’t been close and I hadn’t talked to him for years before that… but once he died I felt like an orphan… even though we hadn’t been connected, I still felt like there was a part of my family out there… took a while to get over that…
a little further along in the album I came across a photo of our family…
it was interesting that I found these pictures today… just this morning I made myself some peach apricot tea, it was one of our favourites and very hard to find… I had picked it up at McLeod House in Stonewall…
I made the tea in a pot that the kids’ bought me, with a cozy that a friend had felted for me… all of which made me feel that I was surrounded with love…
good feeling…
28 Friday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
tonight as I walked up the driveway the neighbour’s dog had his head over the fence barking at me… the fence is about six feet high but there is so much snow on the ground that he could look over and see me…
they’ve only had him for about six months and he’s certainly grown by leaps and bounds in that time… sadly he has learned to bark…
when I look out my bedroom window I can see into their backyard… it is filled with paths that the dog has made and tons of dog doodoo all over…
made me think of my grandsons and the job of cleaning up after their two dogs… doing the cleaning up on a regular basis has been difficult for both of the older boys as they have had the job…
then of course, there is so much to pick up that they get frustrated, or leave it till spring when it turns all soft and mushy… there are often tears when clean-up actually happens…
my backyard looks rather pristine… even with the bunny visiting on a regular basis…
27 Thursday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
last night I spent some time in the hot tub…
was thinking about the conversations that George and I used to have there late in the evening, in the dark…
we’d talk about work, the house, the kids, everything…
went through the day missing him… we had a few jobs at the office that he would have helped sort out…
had problems with some technology during the day and this evening as well…
feel a bit like spring will never come… reminded me of a card I received from a former colleague, a number of years ago… came across it when I was working on the shelves in the hall… it mentioned that spring always comes…
trying to hold onto that… need to get some more flowers I think… they often help…
these crocuses have all died off now…
26 Wednesday Mar 2014
Posted in life, Uncategorized
as I walked down the street around 4:30 tonight, I noticed all the water running down the road…
no gloves, no hood, no rush, as it wasn’t too cold… the sun was warm on my body as I walked…
this picture is one I took last night on the same walk… tonight there was about three times as much water…
maybe, just maybe spring is on the way…
