having a day… feeling like I will burst into tears at any moment… not sure what it is about but likely something to do with the season and missing George…

before, if I was having a moment, or a day, I would give him a call and we would talk about poor me, get to the place where we could laugh about it, and eventually, I would feel better…

today a colleague tried hard to perk me up, but that just wasn’t happening…

maybe it has to do with the fact that yesterday I received a throw/blanket in the mail that I had ordered online for my grandsons… it consisted of a picture of George and the boys as they were walking to breakfast on a summer day in 2011…

memory of a wonderful weekend spent with the boys…

I was going to give it to them as a Christmas present but then thought it might make them sad, so gave it to them last night when we were together and they loved it… I was also worried that my daughter would respond tearily, which she did, and I didn’t want that to put a damper on Christmas day… although not sure who I am kidding… likely there will be a damper on Christmas this year…

as the day progressed my mood improved, and after a quiet evening watching tv, napping and having a lovely hot tub, I am feeling much more positive about life…

what a difference a few hours can make in your life…