a few days ago I was told something that really ticked me off…  what I needed was to talk the matter over with someone – that would have been George…  made me realize how much I miss him…  I would have vented, he would have made all the appropriate noises, or said something about how dumb the situation was and got all mad about it, wanting to protect me, but not knowing exactly how to do that…

I wasn’t able to talk the situation over with anyone and it really ate at me… finally I was able to get another person’s opinion and then let it go…

another example of some of the simplest but most important things that are now in a deep empty place…

the house is full tonight, with a family sleepover, as the big kids plan to leave the little kids here in the morning and head out for some snow boarding…

lonesome tulip…

but it also feels kind of empty…