enjoyable day…

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believe that I enjoyed every minute of my day… got up, dressed and went outside… spent some time in my new chair and read…

reading and watching the plants get watered at the root level...

reading and watching the plants get watered at the root level…

found the root watering tool and watered all of the plants in the new pond area… right now the pond is filled with algae and I think it is from fertilizing the plants and the water running into the pond…

took most of the day, but each plant got a lovely soaking at the root level, and while that was going on I watched the birds, read and snacked…

beautiful morning glory...

beautiful morning glory…

had a lovely nap in the afternoon and watched some great jumping at Spruce Meadows…

read and watered some more and then came in for supper and some TV…

starting to feel more positive again… thank goodness…

when…

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when will these days be over…

had a very rough day today… keep thinking that I should be done with days like this… when I just really want to lay on my bed and cry, but instead have to work and try to keep the tears from coming…

549 days… shouldn’t that be enough… shouldn’t I be able to get on with life… what is my problem…

tonight the kids came and we picked up some groceries and made dinner… then we went to Sargent Sundae for ice cream… perked me up a little bit…

how can you feel sorry for yourself with all the energy surrounding you, lol…

got a shot of someone’s new running shoes which are orange with camo…

side view of new running shoes...

side view of new running shoes…

18 months…

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I was married for 41 years and 7 months (15,193 days)…

anniversary in Courtenay...

41st anniversary in Courtenay…

I have been a widow, for 18 months (548 days)…

sometimes it feels like they are equally long…

the last few weeks have been difficult and it wasn’t until midway through last week that I realized it was coming up to a year and a half since my beloved left me behind…

last night I made a dish that I first made just after we were married… it had fish, rice, mushroom soup and whatever vegetable was around and I made it fairly often as my repertoire of recipes wasn’t very big…

he ate that meal on and off for 30 years before finally telling me it wasn’t his favourite… made me laugh as I was eating it last night…

as I sat in the hot tub later and looked up at the stars I saw a satellite along with 4 planes and remembered how he would always spot them before me and then have to point them out carefully so that I would see them…

my life is good, and I am getting used to the big girl pants, but some days I just really miss him…

I remember someone years ago talking about a Godde-sized hole inside them… I have a George-size hole… I imagine it will grow smaller, but don’t expect that it will ever be completely gone…

spiders…

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couple of things have happened over the last few days..

both yesterday and today I have had run-ins with spiders… if you know me you know that I dislike spiders immensely… all of our married life George would save me when I came across one… I would holler and he would come running and dispose of the creature…

one of the few times I dealt with one, that I can remember, was when Cyndi was a tiny baby in the bassinet and one headed across the living room floor toward her… I found a shoe and disposed of it in a fit of she bear protective rage

we watched Arachnophobia when it was on TV once, and I had nightmares for weeks, the girls thought it was hilarious… I remember as a girl at my Grandmother’s cottage having spiders run toward me on a regular basis… I think they knew I was terrified…

yesterday there was one in the main floor bathroom when I came downstairs first thing in the morning… I had to find a shoe and deal with it and did, with barely a flutter of my heart… tonight I sat up on the bed to discover one right up against the wall not a foot from my foot… quickly I found a book and dealt with it…

apparently, I am getting used to those big girl pants

pond that is maintaining the water level...

pond that is maintaining the water level…

finally the pond is maintaining its water level which makes me very happy… it sounds just wonderful and brings me such serenity…

 

beauty…

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some beautiful flowers this morning…

beautiful purple morning glory...

lovely purple morning glory…

the morning glory had something like 13 flowers open on it… and they went right around the side of the house…

morning glories going around the corner of the house...

morning glories going around the corner of the house…

another of the spotted dahlias was blooming and I got a shot of one of the bigger tomatoes which is growing in a pot by the back door…

spotted dahlia... wonder what the real name is...

spotted dahlia… wonder what the real name is…

tomato growing...

tomato growing…

a lovely way to start the day…

solitude…

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spent a very quiet day…

talked with one of my girls for a few minutes this morning and then didn’t talk with anyone for the remainder of the day…

didn’t take a single picture…

lazed around… did a few chores around the house and napped or watched TV…

had a bad night… couldn’t sleep and so was up for 3 or 4 hours in the middle and I think that put me off a bit today…

in a few days it will be a year and a half since George died…

having a bit of a poor me day…

morning glories blooming close together..

morning glories blooming close together..

the pond…

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had a good time with my sleepover friend… we counted morning glories (8)… we walked to the A for “the special” and got the rye toast that Grandpa liked… we worked in the garden, like Grandpa would have… one of us had a hot tub while the other continued with the garden work, like Grandpa would have…

rearranged floating objects in the pond...

rearranged floating objects in the pond…

had a couple of helpers throughout the day and one of them did some work in the pond… got one of the plants to stay upright, trimmed up some dead material, pulled out a broken glass ball and rearranged all the floats and glass balls…

lily pads and floats...

lily pads and floats…

fish were fed and numbers of people tried to find them, although they really hide well under the slate bridge…

got a couple of good shots of the floats and balls…

close up of floats and glass bubbles...

close up of floats and glass bubbles…ad 

went for dimsum and after the kids left, watched some TV and made a lovely dinner of pan seared steak with pan-fried potatoes, mushrooms and onions, and fresh tiny tomatoes from the garden…

a lovely day all around…

 

sleepover…

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quiet day mostly… got up at five and had a lovely hot tub as clouds played peek-a-boo with the moon and dawn lit the sky… then back to bed for a few hours…

datura which will likely bloom tomorrow....

datura which will likely bloom tomorrow….

sat out in the garden and read, took photos, and enjoyed the pond till early afternoon…

fish in the main part of the pond...

fish in the main part of the pond…

 then watched a marathon of Top Chef Masters and napped…

fish looking for food by the waterfall...

fish looking for food by the waterfall…

picked up by the kids and went to the Olive Garden for dinner… I had been thinking about their salad and bread sticks for a while now… very long wait to get in, but most of our supper was good although Crystal’s wasn’t… the manager was quick to bring her something else so it all worked out well…

while there, we decided on a sleepover, so once we got home we watched a bit of TV, had a very nice time in the hot tub, and currently we are both eating popcorn and drinking purple koolaid…

enjoying popcorn before bed...

enjoying popcorn before bed…

very shortly we are going to bed, because Grandma is tired, lol…

beautiful blue morning glory...

beautiful blue morning glory…

I do have a wonderful life…

Friday…

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yay, it’s Friday… been quite a week…

and, I think the pond might be fixed…

light shining through morning glory...

light shining through morning glory…

got some good shots of the morning glories this morning… and a couple of the hibiscus beginning to unfurl…

hibiscus bud early this morning...

hibiscus bud early this morning…

when I arrived home it was open…

hibiscus when I arrived home...

hibiscus when I arrived home…

as I was driving home I was craving the wings I never got earlier this week, and coleslaw, for some reason… in the mail was a flyer from a local place and they had both items so I called, ordered and had a lovely dinner, with enough leftovers for tomorrow’s lunch…

float in the pond that doesn't seem to be leaking...

float in the pond that doesn’t seem to be leaking…

:-)…

memories…

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this morning there were 9 morning glories…

light shining through the beautiful purple morning glory...

light shining through the beautiful purple morning glory…

made me think about my Mom and the amazing days we spent together during her last four months…

she died within a year of my Dad… they were such a couple… always together, always doing things to support the other… I don’t believe I ever heard either of them raise their voice to the other…

my Dad looked after my Mom from the time my brother was born until I was about fifteen or so… when he was born she had a breakdown and spent many years struggling with her health… she would often spend six months of the year in hospital while Dad looked after us and visited her regularly…

she was on large doses of Valium so even when she wasn’t in the hospital she was pretty drugged up… she decided one day that she was getting off the meds and stopped cold-turkey… she improved amazingly after that…

then Dad’s emphysema gave him a very hard time and Mom took over looking after him… we both did, really… when I turned sixteen we bought a car together and I drove Dad to and from work every day until he took an early retirement… as he got weaker and could do less, Mom stepped up her care and before he finally went into hospital, she was doing everything for him…

morning glories blooming close together..

morning glories blooming close together..

true love is an amazing thing to behold… I got to see it with my parents, and experience it with my beloved…

sometimes I am amazed that I have lived so long without George… somehow I thought we would ride off into the sunset together…

Mom and Dad enjoyed our garden and the flowers… although for most of the early years our garden was a playground for little people… they would be part of breakfasts and barbecues on the deck…

they would have enjoyed the morning glories, and the pond… I remember them telling me about my grandpa on my dad’s side who had an amazing garden filled with beautiful roses…

the pond this morning...

the pond this morning…

what wonderful memories…

interesting the stories one remembers…