it is a year today since my hysterectomy and ventral hernia repair…

I can remember the fear, and the relief when I woke up… my sister-in-law coming to be with me and spending the night because I was afraid to be alone following the surgery and having to leave early the next morning to catch a plane to get her to work on time…

frst night at the hospital…

and I also remember the excellent care I received and the wonderful doctors I dealt with… and how my friends rallied around me with shifts as my support in the hospital, and then at home as I slowly recovered…

I remember the problems with the drugs and how I made the decision to stop taking them just hours after the surgery… the pain was severe but my body was so happy not to have all that stuff in it… drugs just really aren’t my friend…

it was a difficult time but also very healing as during those ten weeks before I was able to get back to normal living I had the opportunity to grieve the loss of my beloved…

thinking back to all the company that came and delivered food, sat with me, and did the things I couldn’t… Dobby who stayed for a week and tempted me with wonderful tidbits to encourage me to eat… organizing the fridge and freezer so when she left I would be able to manage on my own… my nephew staying with me for the first two days after they sent me home early, picking me up and sitting with me through the pain… friends who came by to water the plants because I couldn’t lift anything… my girls doing everything possible for me…

maybe that is what I have been struggling with this week…

now I am healthy and doing well… I can water my own plants, make my own food and do my own chores…  what a difference a year can make…

as someone put it today it seemed like a very long time ago, or was it just a few months?!?!?

roses to celebrate a great year…