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forty-five…

01 Saturday Aug 2015

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anniversary, beloved, big girl pants, forty-five, memories

  
forty-five years ago today I married the love of my life… we had a wonderful journey…

this is the fourth year that I have been on my own… doesn’t get much easier, but I have spent the day with my daughter and grandsons and focussed on the many memories of fun times…

there was horseback riding… for some of us… one young person decided they weren’t going so I climbed down off my horse and waited with him…

  
miniature golf… for all of us… George had enjoyed playing this course…

  
and go-cart racing… not for me, lol… I did think about the last time we came here when I squeezed into the little second seat and screamed all the way around the course while George laughed as he drove…

  
supper out topped off a great day…

last night I slept under the full (blue) moon on the deck… good thing I did because it looks like it is going to rain tonight…

  
barely any mosquitoes:-)…

to my beloved…

  

sardines…

04 Saturday Apr 2015

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big girl pants, dad, effort, emphysema, memories, sardines, special

busy day… out and about early to get groceries and a few things for tomorrow’s dinner with the kids…

picked up sardines for lunch with some lovely herb and garlic bread…

made me think of my dad… he loved sardines and would mash them and put them on crackers…

he died on Good Friday in 1988… interesting that I would be thinking of him today…

 he was a very special person… in my entire life I never heard him raise his voice to anyone… you knew if he used a certain voice that you were in serious trouble… 

he looked after my mom who struggled with depression for the greater portion of her adult life… and he looked after us for many months of the many years she was in the hospital… 

I still remember driving him to and from work every day as he became more and more affected by emphysema…

he taught me that every individual ‘s effort should be celebrated… he had been a great athlete in his early days and we spent many hours at the arena watching sporting events where we always cheered for everyone’s performance… 

I still love to watch many sports on TV, lol…

lovely memories…

warm…

05 Thursday Mar 2015

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big girl pants, flowers, gentle, healing, memories, slippers, warm

I’ve been wearing slippers for the last number of months because the kitchen floor is cold half way into the room from the sliding doors…

this is quite unusual as I rarely wear things on my feet… I wear sandals all year round at the office…

what I am missing is the heated floor in the bathroom… can’t feel the warmth through the slippers…

when we put in the heating wires under the tiles we thought the heat would radiate out from the pad, but it didn’t we learned, so the space right in front of the sink is cold…

the day has gone by gently… messages and calls from family and friends… flowers from the kids, lunch with colleagues… surprise supper out with some of the kids…



I am home, cozy in my bed, thinking of my wonderful life…

had some great moments when people commented on Facebook about pictures and memories of George… warmed my heart…

it has been healing in a way… 

installation…

12 Thursday Feb 2015

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art installation, big girl pants, Butchart Gardens, memories, Park, waterlilies

the art installation is complete… it was finished on Saturday… we got the last of the twenty-nine framed waterlily photos up… and when I say we, I mean my friend, while I passed the odd thing to her…

she did an amazing job… not only are the pictures even and square, there are stickies in the bottom corners so they stay level, lol…

when I described a wall of water lilies she was thinking it might be a bit, shall we say, boring… now that it is all finished she agrees it was the right choice for me… I love water and the lily flowers too…

every time I walk down the stairs, I see something different…

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this one reminds me of a walk through the Leo Mol garden with George in the summer of 2011… the ducks were a complete surprise in the pond… had never seen them before or since…

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this one brought back my time at the Butchart Gardens in Victoria with my kids, just before they moved from Vancouver Island… we had been on the cruise to Alaska, and spent time in Seattle… finished off with a wonderful day in the Gardens and had tea at The Empress… so many memories…

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this one was taken in October of 2011 when we spent ages sitting on a bench admiring the pond… might have been one of our last walks in the Park…

last night my daughter gave the installation her stamp of approval… phew…

wonderful to have these different memories as I move up or down the stairs…

memories…

13 Tuesday Jan 2015

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beloved, big girl pants, death, memories

had a conversation recently about someone who had lost their partner a few months ago…

brought back all kinds of memories…

thought about the requirements that had to be sorted out… the documents I had to complete… the money grabs that seemed to be part of the process… the feeling of drowning in paperwork and worry…

for the last few months I’ve been thinking about getting the house in order… getting rid of stuff that I don’t want or need… I want to make it as easy as possible for my girls when the time comes for them to deal with my stuff…

I sure do miss my beloved…

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memories…

04 Thursday Dec 2014

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advent calendar, airwaves, beloved, big girl pants, gift, memories, moon, walk

a good day… very few rough moments, which was lovely… birthdays have always been special in our family so marking George’s is important…

started the day by taking the last of the antibiotics, yay… been using George’s pill container as I need to take the pills with my breakfast now…

last of the antibiotics...

last pill…

Crystal and I walked over to the Burger Place and picked up burgers and milkshakes for our supper…

moon through the trees...

moon through the trees…

made her hold everything while I took the picture on my phone… met up with all the boys at home and then FaceTimed with the kids in Ottawa… they had picked up burgers and milkshakes at McDonalds… we had apple pie in both places as well…

supper was busy and we shared various favourite memories of Dad/Grandpa… from reading every word of a very long story to the little boys, to always starting a new conversation when someone was trying to hang up or walk out the door, to working with the boys around the house and a love of the garden and ponds…

he would talk to any and every person he came in contact with… and he would know lots about them afterwards… just today I was mentioning how that is one of the most difficult things – not having anyone here to share with…

it was good to all be together, even if it was over the airwaves with the iPad… we continue to talk about him so that we won’t forget how special he was…

all of the kids...

all of the kids, some being naughty…

today’s Advent gift was a bottle of Baileys so I had just a little bit after everyone left… it will be interesting to see what that does to my blood sugar, lol…

what a gift to have met and married my beloved, and spend over forty years together…

traditions…

13 Monday Oct 2014

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big girl pants, elders, memories, thanksgiving, traditions, turnip

for the last few days I’ve been preparing for tonight’s dinner…

this year I made two new things… the first was the dressing that my grandson wanted… apparently there wasn’t enough sausage in it so he didn’t like it…

the second was a turnip puff… a friend wrote about it in a blog and it sounded interesting so I checked it out on Pinterest, liked the look of it, and made some… two of us really liked it, the other not so much… my mom and dad felt that gravy just wasn’t great without turnip water in it, so I’ve cooked turnips as part of our celebration dinners for at least thirty years…

had a good time setting the table… included plates and bowls from our elders…

IMG_8816-1.JPGduring dinner we talked about the various items and where they came from…

had also put one of the candelabras from Crystal and Jeff’s wedding on the table… during dinner we thought of people who were missing – those who’ve moved on from this world and those who are just not close by – and we lit the candles as we thought of them…

before dinner the boys went out to find some leaves to go on the plate with the pumpkin… then they spent some time tree climbing…

IMG_8819.JPGlovely day and great dinner… so much to be thankful for…

memories…

08 Friday Aug 2014

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big girl pants, George, memories, shrimp rolls, treat

yesterday for my lunch I had shrimp rolls…

they were a treat from one of my colleagues who knows how much I love them…

they were the person who introduced me to shrimp rolls in the first place…

when George died, everyone from work came to be with me… they came in groups of twos and threes, and always brought me food…

I had no appetite and hadn’t eaten for days and when I finally did eat something it was one of the shrimp rice rolls…

I’ve had them a few times since, but yesterday it brought back all the memories…

IMG_7122.JPGthey still taste yummy…

scattered…

14 Saturday Jun 2014

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this morning we laid my beloved to rest for the final time…

lovely place by the creek to rest...

lovely place by the creek to rest…

with family we walked down to a spot by the creek just across from our home of over forty years, and deposited his ashes to move out to the two rivers it joins, and then Lake Winnipeg…

I was amazed at how difficult this was… we have been working toward this event since last August when we had the discussion that Dad needed to have a place…

a few of his ashes had been placed into necklaces… a date was chosen, flights were booked… a brick from around the pond was engraved… the spot for the scattering was decided… the house and yard were cleaned and tidied for the event…

the plan had been to have a bonfire in the garden last night, and over wieners, baked potatoes and s’mores, share some of our memories of dad/grandpa… unfortunately the weather was uncooperative and we ended up crowded around in the living room looking through old photo albums… the boys were quite surprised at the photos and how different grandpa looked as a younger man, lol…

all the kids slept over and we got up early, met with the rest of the group and walked to the chosen spot… my grandson and I had decided not to have any readings, just send grandpa on his way… I shared how we had made our decisions about what we would do… told the story about how we were going to make a paper box for his remains and then discovered yesterday it wouldn’t dissolve, the last minute conversations with various professionals to decide on plan B…

scattering complete, now on to breakfast...

scattering complete, now on to breakfast…

George loved the creek, and had spent many hours there with our girls and then the grandkids, finding frogs and checking out critters, so it was a fitting place for him…

once his ashes were scattered in the creek, everyone dropped a daisy or two into the stream to travel with him… then we walked over to the “A” for breakfast, which used to be one of our weekend activities, particularly over the last three or four years… nearly everyone had the special – George’s favourite – and we had a great visit with one another…

we all had breakfast, sort of together...

we all had breakfast, sort of together…

home for a last few minutes and then folks moved on to the rest of their day… although we did have a few dad memories before they all left…

gathered tonight for a celebratory dinner…

celebratory dinner, steak and lobster with a "dad" salad...

celebratory dinner, steak and lobster with a “Dad” salad…

feeling a bit scattered myself… many memories came flooding back about the day of his memorial service, at which I was going through some serious health issues and had blocked out much of the events that took place…

the final step has been taken… my beloved…

the first poppies of the year, today...

the first poppies of the year, today…

 

violets…

03 Friday Jan 2014

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African Violets, big girl pants, cope with winter, George, great pianist, maternal grandmother, memories, orchids, Violet May, violets

when I got back to work yesterday, after two weeks away, one of my African Violets was blooming its little heart out… was a bit surprised because it had lots of blooms on it when I left, so I thought it would be just about done…

violets...

violets…

 

it was lovely…

violets close up...

violets close up…

one of the ways I cope with winter is by having lots of flowering plants or cut flowers around to help keep me grounded… usually George would bring home orchids for me on a regular basis… I can’t get them re-bloom, but they last a long time and are so beautiful… the weather has been quite cold and miserable so I haven’t gone over to Rona to get any but think I will see if a friend will come with me so that the car will be warm and I can bring a couple home…

my grandma...

my grandma…

my maternal grandmother’s name was Violet… Violet May… she was an amazing woman… she had a rare calcium deficiency and had to take numerous pills to stay mobile, but she worked until she was well into her sixties… she was a very snappy dresser and had the most interesting hair… it was very short and she brushed it up from the sides… among other things she was a great pianist and I can remember sitting around in her living room singing songs with my family…

amazing what memories come up when looking at a flower, lol…

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