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06 Wednesday Aug 2014

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anniversary, beloved, big girl pants, bison steak, down, tears

feeling a bit down today… could be because I wasn’t feeling well for most of the day…

was talking with a friend recently about our lost partners… I was mentioning how I had no tears on Friday and that felt surprising, but good…

but I am wondering if this might also be a response to getting through another anniversary…

had the kids for bison steak dinner with new potatoes, mushrooms and Caesar salad… it was lovely, although the youngest felt they had just been here for dinner, and that they should only come once a week, lol…

IMG_6925.JPGone day at a time…

today…

01 Friday Aug 2014

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anniversary, beloved, outdoor movies, pond, string algae, today, whipper snipper

today marked 44 years since I married my beloved… I decided to spend the day at home and remember the fun times we enjoyed over the years…

spent a good portion of the day in the garden… mowed the grass and then took an hour to research and wrap the cord on the spool for the whipper snipper… not sure if it is right but will have Jeff check it out on Monday…

20140801-215846-79126441.jpgspent some time reading and even did a bit of weeding…

20140801-220014-79214750.jpgthink I have found something to get rid of the string algae, so ran out and picked up the powder from Pet Traders and put some of it into the far end of the pond… will see how it looks tomorrow…

Crystal and the three boys came over after she got off work and we picked up pizza and chicken wings, took it to the Park and had our supper as we waited for Friday night movies at the Lyric…

20140801-220451-79491475.jpgafter we watched The Croods, we headed home and I read outside in the garden until it was dark and then came in…

a lovely day filled with good memories and no tears…

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dragonfly…

19 Saturday Jul 2014

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barbecue, beloved, big girl pants, dragonfly, garden, goldfish, nature

spent a good portion of the day in the garden…

20140719-200950-72590820.jpgit was lovely and not too hot… another batch of plants are blooming… they could be the same as the purple ones, only smaller… dark pink/red, not sure how I feel about the colour…

first thing this morning a dragonfly landed on the screen and posed for a few pictures…

20140719-201526-72926223.jpgmoved my chair so I was sitting right beside the pond… saw lots of babies… white and red, white and black, and gold ones, which look black in the pond… sadly I’m having issues with algae, not sure the fancy uv filter is doing its job… frustrating because putting it in caused the waterfall flow to be less powerful…

did a bit of weeding and had a lovely nap…

read most of a paper book and also put on my big girl pants and barbecued steak and zucchini, with potatoes, onions and mushrooms…

20140719-202300-73380961.jpgrestful day, but missing my beloved…

Canada Day…

01 Tuesday Jul 2014

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beloved, Canada Day, goldfinch, grackles, hot tub, neighbours, popcorn, quiet

been a very quiet Canada Day here…

it was overcast when I got up and then it started to mist… put out a box of pass-me-overs and made tea…

I saw this goldfinch come to the feeder a number of times throughout the day, once with the missus…

Goldfinch snacking in the rain...

Goldfinch snacking in the rain…

when I was out in the hot tub, he went to one of the feeders in the back corner of the garden… I also thought I saw two of them fly over the house… am wondering if maybe there is a baby boy in their life, although last year there were at least five pairs living in the area…

the grackles have been coming to the feeders a lot… this is very unusual, and they seem to be coming when it is raining… don’t have the heart to shoo them away because they also have a baby in their midst, although it is the same size as the parents, but lighter coloured and bushier…

watched tv, read a bit and napped… my legs are both stiff from the fall, but I don’t have any visible bruising… talked with my girls, and my son-in-law stopped by on his way home from work to stand up some plants in the pond… after my little fall yesterday, I was a bit nervous to get down close to the pond… who would save me if I fell in, lol… he counted four baby fish in the pond as well…

usually the kids would come over and we would watch the fireworks that go off at the Park, but no one was feeling that great and the weather has been rainy and overcast all day so they decided not to come…

spent a bit of time remembering all the gatherings on Canada Day on the front street as neighbours, friends and family would put chairs out on the road, make gallons of popcorn, spray everyone within an inch of their life with bug spray and oooo and ahhhh at the fireworks… some years they would be amazing, and other years not so great… the view is not quite as good now, as the trees have grown so they can interfere depending on where the fireworks have been set up… one year we went over to the Park to watch them and almost died of smoke inhalation, lol…

since talking with the kids the sky has finally turned blue, so I might walk out to the street when they start… or not… missing my beloved today…

scattered…

14 Saturday Jun 2014

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ashes, beloved, big girl pants, breakfast, dinner, family, memories, scattered, the "A"

this morning we laid my beloved to rest for the final time…

lovely place by the creek to rest...

lovely place by the creek to rest…

with family we walked down to a spot by the creek just across from our home of over forty years, and deposited his ashes to move out to the two rivers it joins, and then Lake Winnipeg…

I was amazed at how difficult this was… we have been working toward this event since last August when we had the discussion that Dad needed to have a place…

a few of his ashes had been placed into necklaces… a date was chosen, flights were booked… a brick from around the pond was engraved… the spot for the scattering was decided… the house and yard were cleaned and tidied for the event…

the plan had been to have a bonfire in the garden last night, and over wieners, baked potatoes and s’mores, share some of our memories of dad/grandpa… unfortunately the weather was uncooperative and we ended up crowded around in the living room looking through old photo albums… the boys were quite surprised at the photos and how different grandpa looked as a younger man, lol…

all the kids slept over and we got up early, met with the rest of the group and walked to the chosen spot… my grandson and I had decided not to have any readings, just send grandpa on his way… I shared how we had made our decisions about what we would do… told the story about how we were going to make a paper box for his remains and then discovered yesterday it wouldn’t dissolve, the last minute conversations with various professionals to decide on plan B…

scattering complete, now on to breakfast...

scattering complete, now on to breakfast…

George loved the creek, and had spent many hours there with our girls and then the grandkids, finding frogs and checking out critters, so it was a fitting place for him…

once his ashes were scattered in the creek, everyone dropped a daisy or two into the stream to travel with him… then we walked over to the “A” for breakfast, which used to be one of our weekend activities, particularly over the last three or four years… nearly everyone had the special – George’s favourite – and we had a great visit with one another…

we all had breakfast, sort of together...

we all had breakfast, sort of together…

home for a last few minutes and then folks moved on to the rest of their day… although we did have a few dad memories before they all left…

gathered tonight for a celebratory dinner…

celebratory dinner, steak and lobster with a "dad" salad...

celebratory dinner, steak and lobster with a “Dad” salad…

feeling a bit scattered myself… many memories came flooding back about the day of his memorial service, at which I was going through some serious health issues and had blocked out much of the events that took place…

the final step has been taken… my beloved…

the first poppies of the year, today...

the first poppies of the year, today…

 

flowers…

31 Saturday May 2014

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beloved, flowers, planting, pond, purple, sunstroke

enjoyed a lovely morning… got my hair purpled and then went to a garden centre where I had way too much fun…

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20140531-213700-77820763.jpghad a very large cart which was hard to maneuver around the plants, but amazingly I managed…

20140531-214015-78015493.jpggot some help with what to put in the pots that are going into the front bed… hope I can remember what goes with what…

20140531-214157-78117930.jpgwas forced to stop shopping when I ran out of room in the cart… but I did get a beautiful water hyacinth and a lovely water lily for the pond…

20140531-214401-78241437.jpgunfortunately I worked on one of the ponds in the garden and spent a bit too much time in the sun… may have a touch of sunstroke as I’ve been feeling sick for the rest of the day…

20140531-215527-78927162.jpgtomorrow planting will happen… and I will work in the shade, lol…

spring planting makes me happy, but it also makes me miss my beloved…

gardening…

03 Saturday May 2014

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beloved, difficult, fish and chips, gardening, George, supper, tidying

woo hoo… spent some time in the garden today…

20140503-213154.jpgplan was to tidy the back deck… the furniture was all stacked and there was a ton of cedar leaves all over it…

earlier in the day I had seen a couple of huge robins in the garden…

20140503-213516.jpgafter tidying the deck I cleaned up the new flower beds and the raised bed…

20140503-214219.jpgit was cool and a bit windy, but wonderful to be out in the garden… was happy to get so much done…

20140503-215341.jpglooks good…

then I made myself pickerel, oven baked French fries, and pea pods for dinner…

20140503-215546.jpgthought about George as I was working in the garden and making supper… he was always the one who did the hard work in the garden… my job was to keep him on track, lol… and he was always the one who made the French fries… it was more than a year before I was able to make fish and chips, and even now it can be difficult…

I miss my beloved every day…

life moments…

12 Saturday Apr 2014

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beloved, big girl pants, fish and chips, George, life moments, married, memorial service, snow, wedding

today was filled… started around noon when huge snowflakes descended from the sky… for a long time…

look what's back...

look what’s back…

about that time one of our young friends got married… my daughter sent me a video of their vows… lovely to watch… I am hoping their love endures like that of my beloved and I…

a friend picked me up and we headed off to a memorial service for another friend’s mother… second one I’ve been to since George’s… wasn’t really sure how I would make out, but it was fine… it was in a church – a denomination that I have been connected to over the years, so the process was familiar… it was beautifully done and my friend managed very well…

but it did remind me of the memorial service we went to a week before George died… on our way home he commented about how people might remember him… that kept coming to my mind during today’s service… friends at today’s event were mindful and checked to see how I was doing… nice to be cared for…

interesting to have a beginning and an ending all in the same day… just yesterday someone commented on their parents’ 45 years of marriage… feel like I need to let the tears flow, but that hasn’t happened so far…

last night I found the missing pickerel (which I had been searching for) in the freezer and thawed it to have tonight… I made fish and chips… it was something that George made on a regular basis, often on Tuesday night when I got home from aquasize…

fish and chips...

fish and chips…

was rather proud of myself as I have only made chips a few times since then…

those big girl pants slip on easily sometimes and other times are very difficult to get into…

the depths…

02 Wednesday Apr 2014

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65, beloved, big girl pants, celebrate, depths, mixed up, pain, snow

tonight I stopped and picked up some fish and chips, which I have been craving for weeks… didn’t even put away my things when I got home… it was delicious…

have been really down for a while and it wasn’t until tonight when a friend called that I realized what the problem was…

another friend is turning 65 on Friday and tonight their family were having a come-and-go to celebrate…

when the invitation arrived I faced the fact that George would have been 65 last December… it didn’t mean much at the time, but this celebration kind of kicked me in the gut… don’t get me wrong, I’m glad our friend is having a great special birthday, but I’ve been stuck in my own pain…

we were invited to add a note to an online card and include a picture of our family… didn’t know what to do about that either… should the picture be of my family now or what my family used to be… In the end I sent a picture of our group… that seemed to take care of the request, but I am still trying to figure out who my family is…

20140402-211358.jpg things seem so mixed up right now… April second and the garden is filled with snow… I remember the year George died and how we were out working in the garden raking the grass in the middle of March, just a few weeks after…

apparently, you never know what will bring on the pain… as another friend said, likely I will have days like this for the rest of my life… hopefully they will come less often as time goes by…

dripping…

09 Sunday Mar 2014

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beloved, big girl pants, ceiling, dripping, ice dam, meltdown, snow, snow blowing

this morning I went outside to do a bit of shovelling so that I could get to the hot tub…

it was warm, amazingly, and water was dripping from the various icicles which were hanging across the back of the house…

took a few pictures while I was out there…

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this one shows how the snow was actually melting along the edge of the deck…

a bit later I went to have a shower and discovered water dripping from the ceiling into the bathtub… realized that it was from an ice dam that I had been taking pictures of earlier…

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called and consulted with my son-in-law and he agreed he would look at it when they arrived for dinner…

had a bit of a poor me meltdown wanting my beloved to be here to look after me and fix this…

later the kids had some fun in the snow while their daddy blew lots of it out of the driveway…

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then there were ladders, hammers, roof rakes, and long bars as the two oldest boys tried to get rid of the ice dam…

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fought with those big girl pants today…

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