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flying…

23 Tuesday Dec 2014

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this morning my Advent gift was a very glittery purple dragonfly… which flew right to the Christmas tree…

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talked with the kids in Ottawa before they headed to the airport…

my son-in-law came by and we walked to the “A” for breakfast… lovely time… I held his arm for part of the walk as it was fairly icy… brought back memories of holding hands with my beloved whenever we walked anywhere…

got a call from Ottawa to say the flight was delayed and then another to say it was cancelled for today and they wouldn’t be flying home until tomorrow…

spent some time feeling sorry for myself, had a nap and went out for a few errands… the last I hope…

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sat in the living room and watched the chickadees and nuthatches flit back and forth to the feeder which my grandson had filled on Sunday… dug out the tripod, found the remote and waited for them to come back to the feeder… and, of course, they flew off and never returned, lol… only picture I got was of the camera on the tripod…

trying to remain positive that the kids will really arrive tomorrow… did get a bit of extra time to finish preparations…

love…

09 Tuesday Dec 2014

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sat eating my breakfast looking at Love which my beloved made with his scroll saw… he was very talented…

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been going through a bit of poor me… missing George and feeling a bit down with all the health stuff…

on our way home tonight we saw some spectacular sun dogs…

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was hard to get great shots as the traffic was whizzing past…

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so tired I wasn’t sure I would make it through aquasize class, but I did… then I made some soup with squash and chicken and onions… very nice…

now to bed…

memories…

04 Thursday Dec 2014

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a good day… very few rough moments, which was lovely… birthdays have always been special in our family so marking George’s is important…

started the day by taking the last of the antibiotics, yay… been using George’s pill container as I need to take the pills with my breakfast now…

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last pill…

Crystal and I walked over to the Burger Place and picked up burgers and milkshakes for our supper…

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moon through the trees…

made her hold everything while I took the picture on my phone… met up with all the boys at home and then FaceTimed with the kids in Ottawa… they had picked up burgers and milkshakes at McDonalds… we had apple pie in both places as well…

supper was busy and we shared various favourite memories of Dad/Grandpa… from reading every word of a very long story to the little boys, to always starting a new conversation when someone was trying to hang up or walk out the door, to working with the boys around the house and a love of the garden and ponds…

he would talk to any and every person he came in contact with… and he would know lots about them afterwards… just today I was mentioning how that is one of the most difficult things – not having anyone here to share with…

it was good to all be together, even if it was over the airwaves with the iPad… we continue to talk about him so that we won’t forget how special he was…

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all of the kids, some being naughty…

today’s Advent gift was a bottle of Baileys so I had just a little bit after everyone left… it will be interesting to see what that does to my blood sugar, lol…

what a gift to have met and married my beloved, and spend over forty years together…

blogging…

02 Tuesday Dec 2014

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yesterday marked my second year on WordPress…

in that time I have written nearly every day, 747 posts to be exact…

more than 150 people follow my blog and the most popular topics include life, her big girl pants, and nature…

pretty good considering the day I started I was just going to see what it was about, lol…

my goal had been to share the experiences I had gone through following the passing of my beloved… not sure if I’ve done that…

for the last few weeks, every time I walk by the garden window at night, three of the solar lights twinkle all night long… I’ve decided that George is helping them twinkle:-)…

I’m learning to deal with my new reality and am finally over the poor me stage…

so far the sugar hadn’t been too much of a problem, but I guess the real test will come around Christmas…

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1000 days…

30 Sunday Nov 2014

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I have this app called Dreamdays on my phone… it counts up to and down from important dates…

today marks 1000 days since my beloved left this world… in four days it would have been his 66th birthday…

we went to Rona today to pick up a tile and a new faucet for the kitchen as the old one has been dripping for a few weeks…

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thankfully Jeff was able to replace it for me… don’t even think there was any cursing, lol…

when my chariot arrived, it even included a snow shoveler…

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for most of our years together George did all the shovelling, other than the few years his heart wouldn’t let him…

a thousand days seem like forever and a blink of an eye all at the same time… I’ve missed him every single one of those days…

lonesome…

15 Saturday Nov 2014

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as I move along this new path in my journey I do get lonesome for my beloved… I miss him all the time, but mainly I am enjoying my new life…

of course there are days where I feel down… this weekend I couldn’t unhook the hose to empty the hot tub… he had the strongest hands that could open/twist/turn anything… the fish tank is getting cloudy and he would have known exactly what type of filters we need… I’ve tried a couple of different kinds, but still don’t think I am getting the right ones, sigh…

was talking with someone who lost their partner shortly after George died… they have filled their time with other people, hardly ever on their own… recently they commemorated their partner’s passing with what sounded like a full blown funeral…

we will be celebrating George’s birthday in a few weeks, likely with burgers and milkshakes, maybe apple pie, three of his favourite foods… we will be together and share stories and laugher, and maybe a few tears but likely less than last year or the year before…

interesting the different ways that we each respond as we deal with these life altering events…

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normal…

25 Saturday Oct 2014

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spent my Saturday in my new normal… a quiet day to recharge my batteries…

a few chores – watering the plants, putting chemicals in the hot tub, laundry… chatting with my girls on the phone or by text…

the garden needs work before the weather changes, but this Fall I am not motivated at all to get the work done…

George loved to putter around on Saturdays… cleaning the garage, working in the garden… going for bike rides… he liked TV as well…

watched some skating and a few cooking shows…

made coleslaw and used up a few frozen wieners which I cooked with brussel sprouts and a baked potato…

IMG_8973.JPG pleased that I’ve been using up things in the freezer…

used to run around and do shopping and errands and use Sunday to relax…

missing my beloved… don’t really love my new normal…

voting…

14 Tuesday Oct 2014

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since I was of age, I have voted in every election… and I have done it each and every time with my beloved…

we have an election next Wednesday… first one since George died…

I wasn’t sure how I was going to make it through the process, so I decided to do something different…

tonight when I got home from work, I walked over to the community club to vote in the Advance Poll… never done that before…

advised the man who put the ballots into the counting machine that I wanted to take a picture of the ballot as it went in…

IMG_8821.JPGhe was happy to take the picture and was rather excited that someone wanted their picture taken as they voted, lol…

we are so lucky to live in a country where we have the freedom to vote… sad that so many people don’t take advantage of it…

steps…

06 Saturday Sep 2014

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was going to try to put the shoe storage units on the wall this morning, but I didn’t have any screws… a bit humorous because somewhere in the garage I expect there are hundreds of them…

then I moved to organizing a drawer and in the process had to destroy some items of my beloved’s… still amazingly difficult…

I went to the grocery store to pick up a few items and when I got home discovered that the pond was nearly out of water… turned it off and filled it up again…

listened to geese flying over as I was filling the pond… I do love that sound…

the moon is gorgeous tonight…

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firsts…

03 Wednesday Sep 2014

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this morning I was able to spend some time remembering the girls’ first days of school… I was privileged to be home while they were young and can still remember the excitement of those special days…

my baby watched her first born get on his first school bus as he headed to a French-only high school in St. Boniface…

IMG_7989.JPGher baby starts kindergarten in the next few days and the middle one started grade 4 today…

hard to believe they are so grown up…

after that I spent a good part of the day with our photo albums because I knew there were some first day pics of them…

it was great fun as I wandered through our life in photos… was missing my
beloved as I went through them… found a few to give away in the process…

IMG_7987.JPGI think this is our oldest’s first day of kindergarten…

IMG_7986.JPGthis is probably the youngest’s first day of kindergarten and the oldest’s first day of grade 2…

two other firsts today… saw my first monarch of the summer as I was walking home from breakfast at the “A” with my daughter… not sure if I saw any the year before, which was very sad… I still remember how one year my vacation was at the same time as the caterpillars moved to butterflies and I got great pictures of the entire process… truly miraculous…

late in the afternoon I walked into the garden and spotted a hummingbird flitting from flower to flower… I was so excited because we haven’t seen any in the garden or even the neighbourhood for more than ten years… of course I didn’t have my phone or camera with me… I’ve been out a few times in the hope of seeing her again, but no luck…

to celebrate this day filled with firsts I baked lobster tails for dinner, a great treat…

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