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in the moment…

27 Wednesday Mar 2013

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beloved, blessing, healthy, in the moment, journey, move forward, sandals, Spring

well, this morning I put on a spring coat and wore my sandals to work…  I have worn sandals at work all winter, but wore boots to and from…  but this morning the sun was shining and it was supposed to go to 0 degrees, so I decided it was time to move into spring…

the sandals might have been a little early, but it was wonderful to have them on instead of boots…

a little chilly on the toes this morning...

a little chilly on the toes this morning…

was talking with someone who mentioned George’s memorial service… I don’t remember much about it because I was dealing with a health issue at the time and was focussed on that, and not fully on what was happening around me… maybe that was a blessing…

It did remind me of the fact that last March I was afraid to walk down the street because I might have a problem with my body…  I had spoken with my doctor and we were in agreement that I needed a hysterectomy and I was waiting to get in to see a specialist, but it was a very stress-filled time…

what a difference a year makes, in so many ways… I am healthy and can do most anything these days without any worries…

I miss my beloved but each day I am learning strategies to move forward on this new journey…

Debit card woes…

10 Sunday Feb 2013

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account, beloved, big girl pants, debit card, struggling to manage, took money, what happened

got a call on Friday that my debit card had been compromised and the Credit Union had cancelled it…

didn’t seem like that big a deal because I basically use one credit card for everything, and I had been in my account just a week or so ago and everything looked fine… but when I went and checked my account I discovered that not only had the debit card been compromised, a good chunk of money had been taken out of my account…

I tried to contact the CU person, but didn’t hear back, so expect I will have to make some calls on Monday to see how we go about getting my money back…

and, it also means I have to go down to the CU and get a new debit card and sadly they have crumby hours…

the last time I used the debit card, I was in Mexico… I don’t know if that’s where the problem was so it will be interesting to hear from the CU folks about what they think happened…

it does feel kind of creepy that someone took money out of my account without my knowing…

it made me think how lucky I am because not that long ago, if someone had taken that kind of money out of our account we would have been struggling to manage while it was being replaced…

those darn big girl pants again, sigh…

holding hands...

holding hands…

I miss my beloved…

February…

31 Thursday Jan 2013

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beloved, extra special, hype, love of my life, roses and chocolates, tradition, Valentine's Day

February is coming fast, and with it Valentine’s Day…

we’ve always made a production about Valentine’s Day in our house…

when the girls were little I would always bake special event cookies or other treats for their classmates, and supper would invariably be on the theme… and that tradition has continued over the years…

card with chocolate and candy...

card with chocolate and candy…

George made Valentine’s Day extra special for us as the girls got older… he always made sure to get them each a rose, whether they had a boyfriend/husband who might do that or not…

last year he remembered a particular jacket that I had been eyeing and it, along with roses and chocolates, awaited me when I got up on Valentine’s Day…

Valentine rose...

Valentine rose…

I hadn’t really noticed the hype that goes on before Valentine’s Day, but this year is different…  every time I turn around I see an ad or hear a commercial all about doing something special for your sweetie… Groupon, Teambuy and others have been suggesting things to buy for Valentine’s Day since mid January… Pinterest has been showing DIY projects since about that time as well…  TV and radio are all on the same bandwagon as well…

Valentine rose...

Valentine rose…

my beloved was the love of my life and I miss him… I am still thinking about how I will remember this year..

Life changing events…

30 Wednesday Jan 2013

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beloved, career, coffee/tea mugs, conversations, grow, I am strong, life changing events, lifelong friendships, outcomes, pretty amazing, see beauty all around me, step out

had a few conversations today about a couple of life changing events that I have experienced… besides the loss of parents and other loved ones there have been three – one in my thirties, one in my fifties and this most recent one, in my sixties…

the conversations reminded me of one in particular…   the first conversation this morning was about coffee/tea mugs and how much better certain ones make the beverage taste… brought back memories of leaving mugs behind when leaving a position…  the second conversation was about stepping out of a not-so-good situation and being open to possibilities…  interesting that both conversations took place today…

recently I have been thinking a bit about the change in my career which took place shortly after the birth of my youngest grandson… his 4th birthday is on Saturday…

I think the point for me has been, that, although the events were very difficult to deal with at the time, and really did change the direction that I and my family took, they all helped me grow and move into a better place…

sometimes it is easier to stay in a bad situation rather than step out of it and see what else is available…

I have learned that I am strong and can handle adversity… I am not framed by what was, but by who I am at this moment in time… I know that my beloved would be very proud of how I have weathered this most recent event…

difficult as each of these events has been, I would not change the outcomes… I have made lifelong friends, I have discovered what excellent skills I possess in the workplace, and I have learned and am still learning to manage on my own… I continue to see beauty all around me…

beauty is everywhere..

beauty is everywhere – you just have to open your eyes…

pretty amazing really…

Recuperating…

21 Monday Jan 2013

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beloved, chat, menagerie, quiet day, recuperating, snow blowing, unpacked

enjoyed a quiet day at home… finished unpacking, did laundry, napped and watched the US Presidential Inauguration off and on throughout the day… having a lazy day reminded me of this picture of the girls with our menagerie…

every day we received a new creation on the bed...

every day we received a new creation on the bed…

had a good visit with my BS friends and am getting ready for bed…

missing my beloved today… it would have been nice to have him to chat with about all the activities of the week…

last night when the kids were here they made sure that my garbage and recycling were taken out, as well as snow blowing the driveway so that I will be able to get the car out…  a large amount of snow came down while we were gone…

lots of snow... but a beautiful sunny day...

lots of snow… but a beautiful sunny day…

very happy that I’ve taken these few extra days off so that I can recover and be full of energy for work on Wednesday…

Heading home…

19 Saturday Jan 2013

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adios, beloved, goodbye Mexico, memories, stars, time together, waves crashing

enjoying the last few quiet moments on the balcony as the stars fade and the light begins to welcome the new day… I can hear the waves crashing on the beach as the resort begins to wake up…

Mexico has been a wonderful experience for everyone and we all have many memories of our time together…

sunset on the beach...

sunset on the beach…

last night when we adults were having dinner, I was thinking what a great job George and I have done with our girls, and how proud of them he was…  we were also very happy with the young men they decided to share their lives with…

to my beloved who made this wonderful time possible and the blessing that abound in my life…

adios…

Thursday…

18 Friday Jan 2013

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beloved, lovely weather, relaxing massages, sunrise

a lovely day… watched the light envelop the trees and ocean early in the morning…

early morning beach wander... a view we often see of Gray...

early morning beach wander… a view we often see of Gray…

had tea and conversation with one daughter, quiet lunch with the other… we girls enjoyed lovely massages and fit in a bit of retail therapy…

happy relaxed girls following great massages...

happy relaxed girls following great massages…

I rested, dowloaded the day`s photos and worked on my blog…

these little guys are everywhere and move at the speed of light...

these little guys are everywhere and move at the speed of light…

last few hours of the day were a bit overcast and cool, but still lovely weather…

we went out for supper to a Brazilian restaurant where we ate a lot of meat… Crystal didn`t come as she was feeling under the weather…

after dinner, everyone returned to their rooms and headed to bed… deep sea fishing early in the morning…

my beloved has been on my mind a great deal today…

Park Bench…

07 Monday Jan 2013

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amazing life, beloved, holding hands, in my heart, love, meaningful, park bench

was reading a blog about how, when this person looks at a park bench, they see love…

made me think about a picture that the Cyndi took of George and I the day of Crystal and Jeff’s wedding…

George and I looking out over the water...

George and I looking out over the water…

Jeff’s good friend and neighbour came up to us and said he thought it was wonderful that folks who had been married for so long could still cuddle on a park bench, and how seeing us in that moment helped make the day especially meaningful for him…

I had just been out of the hospital for a while, and was still feeling quite tired when I did too much… so we were taking a little break during the photographic extravaganza, and had sat down on the bench and were enjoying the view of the river…

I dug up the photo (thanks Ron for sending it!)… I think I will use it for my office coaster, which has been craving a new picture…

it also reminded me of one of the things that I miss most… holding George’s hand when walking down the street, through a store, or wherever… we always held hands and I really miss that…

it used to make the girls giggle in an embarassed way, but as they grew older, it made them giggle in a “how cute is that” way…

when I think about how much I miss my beloved, I am reminded of what an amazing life I had with him and how special that was…

I know the the future will be different, but I will always have him with me in my heart…

Complications…

04 Friday Jan 2013

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anniversary, beloved, complications, Employment Insurance, sick leave, telephone tag

this morning I received a phone call at 7:36 am… I was a bit worried when I answered it – usually phone calls that early don’t bode well…  it was a woman from Canada Employment Insurance who I had been playing telephone tag with for a few weeks…

I had received a letter from her a number of weeks ago, stating that I had not provided correct information about how much CPP I was collecting while I was on EI following my surgery in July…  the letter had felt rather threatening, mentioning they might grab back a portion of what they had paid me while I was off work…

she had left a message during our tag game and it sounded like she was saying that, in fact, they had underpaid me, but that didn’t seem to go with the letter so I was confused…

usually I wouldn’t be home at 7:36, but because I had a 9 am doctor’s appointment I was still here…  she advised that they really did owe me money – $10 to be exact, and she would do all the necessary paperwork and a cheque would be sent, in due course… which means in a number of weeks…

it brought back memories of July, 2010, when I ended up in the hospital with pancreatitis and then had my gall bladder removed… we were planning to head to BC to visit Cyndi and Ron for our vacation the day after I landed in the hospital…

it was a very stress-filled time and George used his whole vacation time to sit by my bed and try to help me any way he could… I was very sick and for six weeks couldn’t eat or drink anything and was throwing up all the time… not really much fun to be around…  finally I was well enough to have the gall bladder surgery and a few days after the surgery it was our 40th wedding anniversary…

my beloved brought me 40 roses in a beautiful arrangement… I have just searched the computer but can’t find pictures of them… (6Jan13 – Cyndi sent me some pics of the flowers and I am added them here!).

the kleenex box shows how big the basket was...

the Kleenex box shows how big the basket was…

all of that made me think back to the EI process we went through then… I had used up all my sick leave, vacation time and overtime before I applied for EI and got it fairly soon after applying… it came in very handy as I was off work for nearly three months and toward the end of that time Crystal got married…

this time when I knew I was going to have surgery I had been in touch with the EI folks and got instructions on what to do ahead of time…  so, like they told me, I applied for EI the day I went on sick leave and completed the necessary online forms… nothing went right from that moment… each time I would speak to someone, or complete a form, I would be advised to call… I would call only to get a recording saying call back, which I did, many times…  when I would finally get a human on the other end of the phone, they would say to do something completely different than the previous person had advised…  this went on throughout the whole time I was off and trying to collect the EI…  to make it even more confusing I was getting CPP as a survivor and then began collecting myself…

whew…  so it was good to have this woman contact me with the information that I hadn’t done anything wrong, or entered incorrect information… it was their little mistake…

so I will watch the mail for that $10 cheque…

40 roses to celebrate 40 years...

40 roses to celebrate 40 years…

Quiet…

28 Friday Dec 2012

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beloved, headache, migraine, preparing, quiet, trip

been a quiet few days… spent one day in the house, tidying and putting presents away…

next day I took the decorations off the Norfolk Pine, as another one fell and broke overnight… I also went out to have my eye looked at, got a flu shot, stopped for prescriptions at the drug store, and had my hair cut… I am enjoying the time away from work and look forward to the next few days of quiet as well…

I picked up a few items we might need in Mexico, and began collecting things in one spot to go into the suitcase…

starting collection for the suitcase...

starting collection for the suitcase…

I am looking forward to spending time with all my kids in a warm and relaxing environment…  George would have been so happy that we were taking a family trip…  I am sure his spirit will be with us…

today have had a pounding headache since this afternoon… wondering if it is from the flu shot…

went shopping with the kids… wandered through Ikea, and then picked up a shovel at Rona – took them some chocolates and nuts… George would have liked that…

since then I have been laying on the bed, trying to get over the headache… been a long time since I have had one… makes me think back to the years when I suffered from migraine on a regular basis, luckily not the real serious ones, but debilitating, nonetheless…

George would look after me, doing the little things he could to help… filling the bathtub with hot water, bringing cold cloths for my head… dealing with the girls…

tonight I think I will go out for a hot tub and remember my beloved…

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