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safe…

23 Monday Nov 2020

Posted by sulis303 in family, health, life, moments, retirement, Uncategorized, weather

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our new process when the kids come by is that they leave whatever they have brought for me on top of the hot tub, while I stand inside the back door…

then I put the items I am sending with them onto the front steps and come into the house and watch out the front window…

they were here today to put the summer tires into the garage, return some mugs and drop off meds for me…

feels safe and also gives me an opportunity to see them;-)…

decluttering…

15 Wednesday Jan 2020

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beloved, big girl pants, blessed, decluttering, friends, good times, Instant Pot, journey, moments, retirement, sky, sun dog, widow

had a very productive and enjoyable day…

spent time in the morning decluttering, deep-cleaning and reorganizing a rolling cupboard that my beloved built many years ago…

felt very pleased with the outcome… got rid of some stuff and made space for the Instant Pot;-)…

then had a delightful visit and some treats with a dear friend…

followed by some reading and a few phone calls… caught this sun dog as I looked out the window;-)…

enjoying the moments in this new portion of the journey;-)…

started…

02 Monday Dec 2019

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yesterday WordPress sent me a note marking seven years since I started blogging…

time has flown past…

and dragged slowly…

this was the first blog I wrote…

since then I have posted 2,573 times and had 25,300+ views…

wow…

my life has changed in so many ways, big and small…

the next event will take place a week Thursday, when I leave the not-for-profit organization where I have worked for ten plus years… retirement… a big step on the journey…

exciting…

18 Monday Nov 2019

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well, I did it…

sorted out all the information, and there was a lot of it… decided to take the step… and announced my retirement as of the end of the year…

excited and a bit scared… going to be a new path on the journey…

reminds me of all the years I was at home from the time the girls were born until they were in high school…

going to take some time recharging and spending time with family… more opportunities to smell the flowers, lol…

will have time to get caught up on the newest technology, woo hoo…

then thinking of doing some volunteer work around social media and proofreading;-)…

fun times ahead…

wrote more about retirement a few years ago…

those big girl pants, lol…

drinking…

10 Thursday May 2018

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A1C, big girl pants, bread, chocolate, drinking, hummingbird, intake, journey, sugar, watch, widow

tonight I enjoyed some hummingbird drinking chocolate… it was a Christmas gift from my daughter…

I used Almond Milk… made with 70% cacao, it was delicious…

before making it, I reviewed what I had eaten during the day and realized there was room for a bit of sugar;-)…

last week I saw the doctor and heard that my A1C has been creeping up for the last six months… it is at 6.3 but needs to stop rising…

I had loosened my very strict watch over my eating habits to make life a bit more relaxed… I don’t think that was bad, but will tighten up my food intake a bit to see if that can make an improvement to the next test…

so, I am trying to have bread only once a week and dark chocolate a few times a week… on the whole, the rest of my food choices are pretty good… we will see how this goes…

life sure is a journey, lol…

2000…

08 Tuesday May 2018

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this is my 2000th blog post…

seems like forever since that December day when I signed in to WordPress to see how it worked… and wrote the first post… that was five years, five months and eight days ago…

over time I came to the decision that I would post something every day… and since I made that choice, have managed to accomplish that goal…

I have written about many of the processes that were involved to finish and close an estate, daily struggles and small steps in my new journey as I wear those big girl pants…

it has been cathartic…

every day is a new adventure…

six…

05 Monday Mar 2018

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two thousand one hundred and ninety-one days since my beloved left me…

you would think that six years would make it easier…

some days it does seem a little easier… many days it doesn’t…

I do things that I’d never done before and I do them well… those big girl pants and all… but I would much rather have him beside me…

I continue to try to remember the good times and focus on them rather than feel sorry for myself… although there are certainly times when I wallow…

I’ve learned to feel those moments and sit in them and not push them aside… I believe that has helped me move forward…

as I write this the tears fall… over the last few weeks I’ve have been reminded of the days when George died and the memorial that followed… it has been very stress-filled as I have been reliving the hours and days immediately following his death…

thinking back to the police arriving at the door and my friends going with me to the hospital… not being told he had died, but walking into the room where his body was… calling my girls, and others… signing a form so that they could harvest his organs… going home to a house without him…

hard days… but today I got chocolate in the mail and bought myself a bouquet of flowers to make me smile;-)…

one step at a time on the journey…

insights…

07 Thursday Dec 2017

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been looking at my stats recently…

as of today I have 280 followers… 270 on WordPress and 10 via email…

sort of fun to review the insights and see how many people are checking it out…

it is also interesting to see where the viewers come from…

kind of amazing to think of people across the world checking out what you’ve written, lol…

I started writing in December of 2012… been a real journey… sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday and other times a decade ago…

and so we move forward… those big girl pants…

complete…

13 Wednesday Jul 2016

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recently had a conversation with someone about having that person at home you can tell anything to and they will immediately take your side…

this is one of the things I miss about being on my own… my beloved would listen to my version of whatever it was and be ready to go and do anything needed to sort out the situation… so often I would then have to calm him down, lol, but just knowing that he was always in my corner was so wonderful…

I miss him in different ways on different days… he really did complete me…

in these 1590 days I have continued to learn things and gain strength each step of this new journey… I am braver, stronger, healthier and maybe smarter… maybe…

mandevilla bud…

feeling…

22 Sunday May 2016

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beloved, big girl pants, feeling, garden, journey, missing, sound, weeding, widow

lots done in the garden today… also fit in a nap and some sports on tv…


been thinking a lot of my journey lately and missing my beloved…

with over four years on my own some things are coming more easily… eating out on my own… something I would not do for any reason in the before time… getting more and more comfortable doing that… shopping on my own… doing things with the car, like taking it for gas and to get washed, lol…

working in the garden on my own… George was the one who executed so many of my ideas… he also did a lot of the work in the garden… I would do the planting in pots, but he would often do the digging and heavy work and the maintenance… I can mow the grass but also appreciate when others do it…

he was also the weeder… he’d spend time in the garage (lots of time!) and then vanish into an area of the garden and pull weeds… I did not realize how much time he spent doing that, lol…

I miss him in the morning, I miss him during the day, I miss him after work, I miss him in the hot tub and I miss him at night…

I miss talking to him, reviewing the day, getting his opinion… today I don’t think I spoke except on the phone with my daughter for a few minutes… I miss the sound of another person in the house…

the garden misses him too, I think…


maybe it is the season, or spending time in the garden… not sure exactly what it is, but missing him so much… will continue to feel my way through…

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