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outside…

02 Saturday May 2015

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spent a good part of the day outside in the garden…

sun shone for the majority of the time and I got some weeding done and put a few plants back into the pond…

  
lots of time thinking about the hours that my beloved put in weeding and maintaining the garden… still amazes me how much I miss him…

between weeding, cause I take lots of breaks, I finished a book I started last weekend… got a few great shots on my camera of a white-throated sparrow as it came to the pond for a drink…

mid afternoon I went in for a nap and the sky looked a bit threatening while big winds tried to knock things over…

  
no rain, and then it cleared up again…

now as I sit on the deck writing this, the sky is very ominous looking but there is no longer much breeze…

  
just over the garage you can see the neighbour’s apricot tree blooming… I’ve been smelling it off and on all day…

I can also smell the barbecue next door as the next door neighbour prepares dinner…

another wonderful day… what a blessing to have this time…

money…

26 Sunday Apr 2015

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busy day… up fairly early because the birds were singing away before dawn… had a few tough moments missing my beloved… amazing how those moments just materialize and you have to wait them out…

went to Dollarama looking for a small drinking glass but they didn’t have any… I did find a cute tray… looks a bit like the dining room chairs, lol…  on to the grocery store where I loaded up on veggies and some tulips jumped into my cart…  grocery shopping is getting more expensive, but I have tons of healthy food for the next week or so… once everything was put away, had a nap and lunch… 

sat in the garden reading for a few hours and then the kids arrived for dinner… steak and lobster with baked potato, mushrooms. asparagus and Caesar salad… yummy… 

doorbell rang and a fellow was wanting to do some yard work to raise money for his hockey playing son…  while we finished cleaning up the kitchen, he and his family cleaned out the front flower bed and raked the front yard…

ran out to take a picture of the finished product and caught the mallards, who live in our creek, as they flew over…  excellent day…

bug…

23 Monday Mar 2015

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been a bit of a bug going around… upset stomachs and headaches…

Thursday and Friday I was dealing with the stomach business… Friday I was feeling a bit better…
Saturday the headache started… went into the hot tub early because I was frozen…
ran out to pick up items for Sunday’s  birthday supper for my youngest…
slept for quite a while under lots of covers, and got up thinking I needed to eat, although I wasn’t at all hungry, but felt the need to eat to stay on top of the diabetes…
gathered a simple supper of cheese and veggies and some flavoured water…
next thing, I came to on my back on the floor… my glasses weren’t on my face and there was water and veggies all around me…
was able to get to the living room and called my daughter… she came right over and they found my glasses which were not broken, thank goodness…
they cleaned up the mess in the kitchen and brought up some supper for me…
it was a long night with very little sleep… and, it appears that I landed on my hip because it is sore… 
still had the headache and now my neck was sore, likely from the fall…
no appetite but have been forcing myself to eat…
my son-in-law came by in the afternoon on Sunday and picked up all the ingredients for the supper so they could make it at their place…
thought of my beloved and how he was always there to look after me when I was sick, bringing me whatever I felt like eating or drinking… 
made me think of all my friends who live on their own and have to navigate sickness alone… I really have been blessed…
hoping that I will feel better soon… 
 

oh ya, this is what I woke up to this morning…

savour…

05 Thursday Feb 2015

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recently someone was talking about how their parent was driving them crazy… made me think of the wonderful last months I spent with my mother as she was dying of esophageal cancer… it was a special time and I was able to savour each of the good, bad and unforgettable moments…

often when I hear people who are struggling with aging parents I think about the days to come when their loved one will be gone and they will be wishing they could hear the complaining or whatever it is that is making them crazy now, lol…

was chatting with someone who was a bit ticked at their partner… I could only think about how I would be so happy to have George here to get ticked at…

I do remember when he would make me a bit grumpy… part of being a couple I think…

it is exactly two years and eleven months today since my life changed forever…

I miss my beloved…

the moon tonight…

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memories…

13 Tuesday Jan 2015

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had a conversation recently about someone who had lost their partner a few months ago…

brought back all kinds of memories…

thought about the requirements that had to be sorted out… the documents I had to complete… the money grabs that seemed to be part of the process… the feeling of drowning in paperwork and worry…

for the last few months I’ve been thinking about getting the house in order… getting rid of stuff that I don’t want or need… I want to make it as easy as possible for my girls when the time comes for them to deal with my stuff…

I sure do miss my beloved…

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flying…

23 Tuesday Dec 2014

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this morning my Advent gift was a very glittery purple dragonfly… which flew right to the Christmas tree…

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talked with the kids in Ottawa before they headed to the airport…

my son-in-law came by and we walked to the “A” for breakfast… lovely time… I held his arm for part of the walk as it was fairly icy… brought back memories of holding hands with my beloved whenever we walked anywhere…

got a call from Ottawa to say the flight was delayed and then another to say it was cancelled for today and they wouldn’t be flying home until tomorrow…

spent some time feeling sorry for myself, had a nap and went out for a few errands… the last I hope…

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sat in the living room and watched the chickadees and nuthatches flit back and forth to the feeder which my grandson had filled on Sunday… dug out the tripod, found the remote and waited for them to come back to the feeder… and, of course, they flew off and never returned, lol… only picture I got was of the camera on the tripod…

trying to remain positive that the kids will really arrive tomorrow… did get a bit of extra time to finish preparations…

love…

09 Tuesday Dec 2014

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sat eating my breakfast looking at Love which my beloved made with his scroll saw… he was very talented…

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been going through a bit of poor me… missing George and feeling a bit down with all the health stuff…

on our way home tonight we saw some spectacular sun dogs…

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was hard to get great shots as the traffic was whizzing past…

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so tired I wasn’t sure I would make it through aquasize class, but I did… then I made some soup with squash and chicken and onions… very nice…

now to bed…

memories…

04 Thursday Dec 2014

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a good day… very few rough moments, which was lovely… birthdays have always been special in our family so marking George’s is important…

started the day by taking the last of the antibiotics, yay… been using George’s pill container as I need to take the pills with my breakfast now…

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last pill…

Crystal and I walked over to the Burger Place and picked up burgers and milkshakes for our supper…

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moon through the trees…

made her hold everything while I took the picture on my phone… met up with all the boys at home and then FaceTimed with the kids in Ottawa… they had picked up burgers and milkshakes at McDonalds… we had apple pie in both places as well…

supper was busy and we shared various favourite memories of Dad/Grandpa… from reading every word of a very long story to the little boys, to always starting a new conversation when someone was trying to hang up or walk out the door, to working with the boys around the house and a love of the garden and ponds…

he would talk to any and every person he came in contact with… and he would know lots about them afterwards… just today I was mentioning how that is one of the most difficult things – not having anyone here to share with…

it was good to all be together, even if it was over the airwaves with the iPad… we continue to talk about him so that we won’t forget how special he was…

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all of the kids, some being naughty…

today’s Advent gift was a bottle of Baileys so I had just a little bit after everyone left… it will be interesting to see what that does to my blood sugar, lol…

what a gift to have met and married my beloved, and spend over forty years together…

blogging…

02 Tuesday Dec 2014

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yesterday marked my second year on WordPress…

in that time I have written nearly every day, 747 posts to be exact…

more than 150 people follow my blog and the most popular topics include life, her big girl pants, and nature…

pretty good considering the day I started I was just going to see what it was about, lol…

my goal had been to share the experiences I had gone through following the passing of my beloved… not sure if I’ve done that…

for the last few weeks, every time I walk by the garden window at night, three of the solar lights twinkle all night long… I’ve decided that George is helping them twinkle:-)…

I’m learning to deal with my new reality and am finally over the poor me stage…

so far the sugar hadn’t been too much of a problem, but I guess the real test will come around Christmas…

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1000 days…

30 Sunday Nov 2014

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I have this app called Dreamdays on my phone… it counts up to and down from important dates…

today marks 1000 days since my beloved left this world… in four days it would have been his 66th birthday…

we went to Rona today to pick up a tile and a new faucet for the kitchen as the old one has been dripping for a few weeks…

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thankfully Jeff was able to replace it for me… don’t even think there was any cursing, lol…

when my chariot arrived, it even included a snow shoveler…

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for most of our years together George did all the shovelling, other than the few years his heart wouldn’t let him…

a thousand days seem like forever and a blink of an eye all at the same time… I’ve missed him every single one of those days…