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able to work in the garden, affairs in order, beloved, big girl pants, cancer of the uterus, enjoying life, expecting to die on the table, happy, healthy, hernia surgery, hysterectomy, journey, money easily accessible, what a year
this morning I continued working a bit in the side garden… slowly but surely I am getting it tidied up…last year at this time I wasn’t able to do much of anything due to my health… I was lucky to find a wonderful woman who came and tidied up the garden for me…
side garden after more weeding… 3/4 done…
about this time last year I was getting my personal affairs in order, because I was expecting to die on the operating table when I had surgery in mid July…
was told on May 22nd, over the phone, that I had cancer of the uterus… I had been waiting for hernia surgery for some time and, after this diagnosis, worked with my doctors to ensure that the hernia surgery I needed would take place at the same time as the hysterectomy…
in my mind I was sure that I was going to die, and so I went about organizing all of my affairs… had a new will written, as well as power of attorney and a health directive… made sure that the money from George’s insurance policies was easily accessible… I wanted to be sure that the girls would have a simpler time with my estate because I didn’t want them to go through all the struggles I had with George’s…
it wasn’t until just the week before my surgery that I began to think I might live through it…
and here it is, nearly a year later… I am healthy, happy and enjoying life… putting on those big girl pants is not nearly as difficult as it was…
missing my beloved every day but moving forward on this journey…
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