today marks six birthdays without my beloved…

it always felt that he lost out because often his birthday and Christmas would be lumped together… particularly for the many years that we really lived hand-to-mouth…

for all of our family birthdays, the birthday person got to choose what we would have for dinner… for the last number of years we have had burgers, French fries, milkshakes and apple pie in his memory… he especially liked the burgers just down the street…

the first few years we Skyped with the out of town kids… one year we had a phone and an iPad so we could get both of them in the room with us…

last year everyone was busy so I had a quiet day remembering so many fun times we had over the years…

our plan was for the city kids to come over tonight but the momma is sick so they stayed home… wasn’t planning to connect with the out-of-towners but was able to FaceTime with my daughter while she had her supper…

I was going to stop and pick up groceries and then a burger, but it was miserable outside so in the end I drove straight home and then ordered a thali platter…

time with my BS buddies and now to bed… life has settled into a pattern and I wear the big girl pants more and more easily…

not sure if that is a good thing or not…