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humming…

19 Sunday Jul 2026

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I was up at 6:30 to watch the F1 pre-race show, and then the race, when the power went out…

I reported it and then went outside to read, happy that the race would be recorded on the PVR…

it is always so quiet when this happens, and, as it was very early, there were few people or cars up and about…

enjoyed a delightful couple of hours in the cool weather, with my book, and the fish, who actually made noise as they were eating and searching for food in the pond…

usually you never hear them…

all of a sudden water came spurting out of the waterfall and the sound of air conditioners humming ended the quiet…

then it was time to make tea and breakfast and get back to the schedule…

flowerbed…

16 Thursday Jul 2026

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I’ve been enjoying the roses around the house…

they remind me of my dear friend and former neighbour, Ellen…

from the time the girls were born, she and her husband looked after them whenever we needed help…

whatever time we were having dinner she would take them next door so we could actually eat without interruption, lol…

we used to have them over for dinner on Wednesday nights and she would babysit while we went bowling… that was a very long time ago…

now I have one of her rose bushes in the front flowerbed and think of her often…

especially when I bring the beautiful roses into the house😊…

continuous…

09 Thursday Jul 2026

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last year on July 8th, the upper pond and waterfall were being taken apart to fix the continuous leak we’d had for a few years…

when I think about it now, it was a miserable summer as the repair took a number of weeks to complete…

and I came across this photo from July 2013 when the pond was being built…

as I sat out there yesterday morning I was so happy to have everything working and no leaks…

what a different summer it will be…

marble-sized…

11 Thursday Jun 2026

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the storm on Tuesday was quite something…

I was worried the hail was going to come right through the windows even though it was only marble-sized in our neighbourhood…

yesterday when I wandered around the garden, I could see how much the hail had damaged the plants…

the hostas took a real beating and the poppies were knocked over by a branch which fell down from the elm tree next door…

but their colour still popped;-)…

floats…

06 Friday Mar 2026

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beloved, big girl pants, blessed, burgers, family, floats, food, fourteen, grandson, memories, moments, Technology, time, widow

last night we celebrated my beloved who departed fourteen years ago…

as always, some days it seems like yesterday, and others so long ago…

hamburgers and floats were eaten here and via the internet…

so thankful to have family around for these celebrations;-)…

passed…

02 Monday Mar 2026

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it is the beginning of March and I realized I hadn’t remembered that this week marks 14 years since my beloved passed…

at first I felt bad because I hadn’t remembered, but then I realized how often I think of him during each and every day and no longer focus on the day he died…

while…

10 Tuesday Feb 2026

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yesterday morning, I spent a little while wandering around the house and adding in Valentine decorations…

in the living room (adding to the table which I did a few days ago), on the stairs…

in the bathroom, and the den…

on Valentine’s Day, I will make something special for my dinner, not sure what yet… my beloved and I would maybe have had steak and lobster or some special treat…

he was very romantic and always got me a rose and some little present to celebrate the day…

I’m always happy to do a bit of decorating around the house, and then spend time thinking about him on Valentine’s Day… I have been so blessed;-)…

face-to-face…

25 Thursday Dec 2025

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big girl pants, blessed, Christmas, Christmas Eve, face-to-face, family, memories, moments, Technology, treat, video, widow

all the jobs were done and the living room set up for our morning video call when I went to bed at 11 pm on Christmas Eve…

put my head down thinking I might nap for an hour and then have a Christmas hot tub around midnight…

woke up at 5:15, yikes… apparently no hot tub for me…

laid back down, didn’t really sleep, and got up at 6:30, lol…

made tea and texted a video of me banging pots and slamming doors, (possibly like I used to do when the families would be here overnight, so they would get up), to the kids in Ottawa…

we met and had a lovely time opening gifts and enjoying all of the loot…

what a gift to be able to meet with them face-to-face…

such a lovely Christmas morning;-)…

widowhood…

04 Thursday Dec 2025

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beloved, big girl pants, birthday, blessed, Christmas stocking, family, grandson, memories, moments, Technology, widow, widowhood, WordPress

as I sit here quietly in the living room I am thinking of two big events that took place in the last few days…

the first was a congratulatory note from WordPress… on December 1st, 2012 I began writing about my journey into widowhood… and have continued that since then, moving into commenting on my life…

the second was today, which would have been my beloved’s 77th birthday… this year we had burgers here, one of his favourite foods, while the kids in Ottawa had an apple galette… he loved apple pie… we had a video visit between the burgers and galette, lol…

my grandson is going to use his Christmas stocking for the first time…

I sure do miss him🤗…

restrung…

03 Wednesday Dec 2025

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spent Sunday setting up the Christmas tree…

first I had to move the plants in the front window to other spots and move two tables out of the way…

then I spent some time removing two strings of lights… one that didn’t work and one that I restrung on the tree…

then, six or seven boxes came upstairs and were gone through to see what was in them and decide on the theme for this year’s ornaments…

chose glass pieces that have rarely been out since my beloved’s passing…

once it was decorated, I was advised that it needed more purple🤪… can you believe it, lol…

so I added more purple…

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