55th…

01 Friday Aug 2025

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today I’ve been giggling over a couple of things as I remember 42 years together, on what should have been our 55th wedding anniversary…

first thing I wandered the garden and took pictures of the morning glories…

some, where they were planted, and some that have just found a spot they like, lol…

I remember my beloved bringing me pictures of the ones blooming in the garden each day when he came to visit me in hospital around our fortieth anniversary…

he was just getting used to the camera on his phone, so it was a big deal for him to take the time to take pictures of flowers…

the second thing is the pond…

it has been leaking for ages, but only when the waterfall is running…

we had the leaking problem for a year or so before he died and it was driving him crazy, trying to figure out the problem…

finally, as I was reading on the back deck, two red squirrels were having a battle over one of the feeders… he and squirrels never got on, so it was funny to have them yelling at each other today…

designed…

25 Friday Jul 2025

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spent time with old photos today as I was searching for some particular pictures…

a neighbour was having a party and had signs on the lawn which made me think of the business we had for a number of years…

we designed and produced (well my beloved did the making, lol) different signs and words and snuck into yards to set them up for special occasions…

it was fun and at the time no one else was doing that…

going through photos to find a few of the ones we’d set up was enjoyable and a reminder of some amazing times in our lives;-)… some of those albums were kind of dusty…

coneflower…

03 Thursday Jul 2025

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the coneflower has finally bloomed… this one was planted on the south side of the house, next to the furnace vents… I think this is a much better spot than the pergola garden…

whenever the hose has been put out it has gotten water and has been growing nicely since it was planted…

not too long ago it produced a bud and it has slowly been opening over the last few weeks…

the petals still need to bend completely, but it is looking pretty good now;-)…

seeing it reminds me of how every year I would buy one, we’d plant it in the garden, and then in the spring my beloved would pull it out thinking it was a weed, lol…

memories 😉…

under-bench…

20 Tuesday May 2025

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I finally removed the under-bench lighting that hasn’t worked since before my beloved died… you can see it in this photo… it is the tube-like piece hanging below the bench and looks messy…

I hadn’t realized that he had fastened it with screws and was thinking what a huge job it was going to be to lay on my back and move around under the bench undoing it, two screws at a time…

then I got the bright idea to cut sections of it and pull it out…

woohoo, it worked perfectly and the deck looks much tidier now…

now to decide if I want to look for something similar to replace it, sigh…

my…

29 Saturday Mar 2025

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even after thirteen years without my beloved, I still only sleep on my side of the bed…

thinking that isn’t going to change;-)…

precise…

12 Wednesday Mar 2025

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when the cleaners were here last week, I heard a crash and one of them brought me this angel… in three pieces…

it was put on the kitchen counter and my housemate first glued on one piece, left it for a few days and added the other piece…

he is much more precise when putting things together, lol… reminds me of my beloved;-)…

she is now put together nicely, although missing a hand, but we haven’t found that piece…

still, she has joined her sisters on the bedroom shelf…

whacked…

05 Wednesday Mar 2025

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I’ve been a bit off, and grumpy, for the last little while, and it wasn’t until I was talking with my daughter that I realized the cause…

I hadn’t been paying much attention to the calendar as most of the time feels like Saturday or Sunday now that I am retired, lol…

it has been thirteen years to the day since my beloved passed…

feels a bit like it snuck up on me although in the past month I have had several dreams about finding him in the hospital with a disconnected breathing tube in his mouth… no one had told me he was dead…

seems strange that after all this time I can still be whacked with the grief…

the good news is that once I figure out what has been causing the discomfort, it usually passes and I am able to move forward in a more positive frame of mind…

I don’t forget him, but can get back to remembering all of the wonderful times we had together and make new memories of the wonderful life that I do have…

this photo of trees is one of the last I took with him… we had taken a drive through the park to see the hoarfrost…

so many wonderful memories;-)…

torpedo…

16 Sunday Feb 2025

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had trouble staying focussed on my book on Wednesday as there was a lot of activity across the way…

two workers spent the entire morning stringing a new wire…

it was so cold I felt bad for them, but they seemed comfortable as I watched…

the most interesting thing was what appeared to be a torpedo shaped object which one person pulled along the line… I think it was winding the new wire around the old ones…

my beloved would have been able to tell me exactly what it was and how it worked, lol…

but, all of those goings-on really made it hard to concentrate on my book;-)…

clothing…

15 Saturday Feb 2025

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yesterday, for Valentine’s Day, I wore a lovely red pullover that my beloved got me in Banff, many, many, years ago;-)… it is one of the few pieces of red clothing that I own…