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orange…

21 Monday Sep 2015

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first thing this morning I took a picture of the Mandevilla… it is a lovely shade of pink…

  
then I spent a bit of time putting a few new plants on the steps at the front of the house…

  
came out pretty nice… hope they last until the cold comes…

been noticing orange things as I remember my friend Susan… she loved orange… on my walks in the Park I have been drawn to the orange flowers… I’ve been working on a project and have noticed I’ve been gravitating to orange there as well…

missing my beloved lately as well… interesting how time can go by and then all of a sudden I miss him tremendously…

tonight the sky was beautiful again…

  
pinky orange, lol… amazing sunsets lately…

final picture tonight is one of the gerbers that are part of the bouquet from the kids…

  
flowers make me happy…

quilt…

12 Saturday Sep 2015

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I have a most beautiful quilt on my bed…

  
it began as pieces of fabric which individuals wrote on at the party given for me after I left my last job… from there a small group of amazingly talented women spent time piecing together the fabric and putting a border around it and backing the whole thing…

it is a real work of art and is filled with inspirational thoughts for me to look at and remember…

  
I don’t always have it on the bed, but have been enjoying it for the last few months…

  
has brought to mind so many who I know who are struggling with their work situations… hoping that positive thoughts and check-ins will be of some support during their difficult times…

some are not happy in what they are doing, others are searching for the right job, still others are trying to decide what to do at this particular stage of their life…

  
still remember the struggle when I was out of work and how difficult the process of finding something was… I didn’t just want a job, I was looking for a calling…

had a lot of support thoughout the process and eventually moved into an excellent position which was just the right fit for me, but getting there was a process…

also contains the words of my dear beloved, who never waivered in his support…

  
truly an amazing remembrance of ten years of my life and the great people I was able to spend time with…

tears…

15 Saturday Aug 2015

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day started with breakfast in the garden…

there were lots of birds… chickadees, goldfinches, sparrows, a woodpecker…

   
 
and I was very excited to discover a caterpillar on one of the parsley plants…

  
was enjoying the activity around me when all of a sudden I burst into tears… never know when the grief will hit you… must have sobbed for fifteen minutes before the sadness passed… miss my beloved so much…

did some gardening… one of the jobs was to take out many of the water hyacinth in the pond… couldn’t even tell if there were fish because it was completely covered over…

and discovered two baby fish… great news and they are both very pretty… moved too fast to get a good picture, lol…

got some nice shots of flowers…  

 
these are tiny ones in the pond…
  
morning glory ready to unfurl tomorrow… can’t believe it but the big morning glory didn’t open this morning…

  
love the shape of the mandevilla buds…

out in the garden for a good portion of the day, other than a nap and when it rained a bit…

forty-five…

01 Saturday Aug 2015

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forty-five years ago today I married the love of my life… we had a wonderful journey…

this is the fourth year that I have been on my own… doesn’t get much easier, but I have spent the day with my daughter and grandsons and focussed on the many memories of fun times…

there was horseback riding… for some of us… one young person decided they weren’t going so I climbed down off my horse and waited with him…

  
miniature golf… for all of us… George had enjoyed playing this course…

  
and go-cart racing… not for me, lol… I did think about the last time we came here when I squeezed into the little second seat and screamed all the way around the course while George laughed as he drove…

  
supper out topped off a great day…

last night I slept under the full (blue) moon on the deck… good thing I did because it looks like it is going to rain tonight…

  
barely any mosquitoes:-)…

to my beloved…

  

followers…

14 Tuesday Jul 2015

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kind of excited to see that I have 223 followers…

in 2015 I have had 2,251 visits but the most interesting thing is that people from ten countries have read one of my blogs…

  
not big numbers if you compare them to others, but big numbers to me, lol…

getting likes and comments and new followers certainly gives me energy…

always fascinating which posts get the most response… I might write something and think it isn’t particularly interesting and then have lots of activity… another time I will feel I’ve written something which everyone will resonate with and it gets no interest at all…

started out as a method to share how I was dealing with the loss of my husband and now it is more general, although everything I do is really about moving forward on my own without my beloved…

this bouquet, in the living room this morning, reminds me of how he always made sure I had fresh flowers…

  

loss…

12 Sunday Jul 2015

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recently lost a good friend to cancer… she was a very special person and many people are feeling her loss…

  
this morning I sat in the hot tub looking into the garden crying, for her and for me…

always shocking how the loss of one person brings back other losses you’ve experienced in your own life…

been reliving the day that George died… I can remember some of it… but I don’t really want to… not sure I have done anything harder than call each of my girls to tell them their dad was gone…

interesting that I haven’t thought about my cancer… the diagnosis, wait, surgery, recovery and finally results of the pathology… just about losing my beloved…

life goes on and I wear those big girl pants more and more… but I don’t have to like it…

and some days I just need to wallow in that feeling sorry for myself place…

  

  

weeds…

28 Sunday Jun 2015

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quiet day spent mainly in the garden… off to the left is the bucket I filled with weeds and spent blossoms which I pulled…

lots of wildlife again… saw at least three goldfinches which reminded me of the day last summer when there were five males at the bird feeder at the same time and I saw them and got a picture… that really was a spectacular moment…

  
laughed for ages after one of the little red squirrels fell out of a feeder, landed in the pond, jumped out and ran through the yard at warp speed… think it was surprised and maybe a bit embarrassed…

 
my bunny friend is spending lots of time here… this afternoon she was suntanning while I was reading… knows that I won’t do anything to hurt her I think, as I can move around without causing her to charge off…
  
planters are looking very nice… hard to believe that June is nearly over…  

as I sit here, ending my day in the garden, I am missing my kids as they weren’t able to come by for dinner tonight… 

also missing my beloved… never know when those moments will surface…

blooms…

26 Tuesday May 2015

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lots of blooms today…

early this morning I got a few shots… this one is the orchid that is reblooming…

  
the first bud is almost open… have had this orchid for at least a couple of years, and it has just been sitting in a corner of the dining room, quietly going about its business…

a picture of blooms from a bouquet that came in today…

 

certainly brighten up the day…

finally tonight took this picture of the beautiful orchid my friend brought me in January after I had lent her my car… today it dropped the last flower…

 

amazingly it has been blooming for five months… going to put it in the corner with the other one, lol…  

flower blossoms sure do make me happy… remind me of my beloved who was always bringing  home orchids for me… my life has been so blessed…

beloved…

09 Saturday May 2015

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last night I was at the computer and for some reason decided to see if George’s obituary was still online…

it was, and I cried as I read it and the condolences that people wrote online about my beloved…

was at Rona today to look for a planter pot and saw a few people who had worked with him, although most of them seemed to be new… things change in three years… it was a scratch and save day and I remember how he always had to work on those Saturdays and Sundays…

picked up a few African violets for the office… also got a pink mandevilla…

  
all of these reminded me of the many flowers George has brought me over the years…

also picked up some solar lights which I put outside to see if I turned them on correctly…

tried on lots of clothes but only found two things I liked… a nice pair of soft pants to wear around the house and some cute purple shorts…

 

came home and took it easy for the rest of the day… 

will be missing my beloved tomorrow…