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10 Thursday Mar 2016

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got a great shot of a squirrel yesterday morning having a snack in the garden…

  
this morning I was up even earlier and watched a bunny crossing the street but didn’t get a picture… the exciting thing was that it was light out when I headed downtown at seven…

did take a few pics of the orchid which still looks pretty good… trying not to touch it which might cause one of the blossoms to drop off…

  
have spent a fair amount of time over the last few days remembering the day of my beloved’s memorial service… it was four years ago today…

all of us getting ready together was rather stressful… 

making it through the gathering was painful and I was barely able to move as my body reacted to the distress of the day and my health issues…

having the opportunity to speak with everyone who came to celebrate his life was awe inspiring and very comforting…

arriving home to discover that someone had hit a borrowed vehicle and driven away without even leaving a note…

can’t actually remember the evening…

such a painFULL time… 

am pleased with how well we have come through these days/months/years… each of us is moving forward and supporting one another…

we  talk about George/Daddy/Grandpa often… I don’t want anyone to forget him and his impact on us and everyone who he touched…

we are and have been blessed…

remembering…

05 Saturday Mar 2016

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woke up to hoarfrost everywhere…

  

it was beautiful…

  

the last thing that George and I did the day before he died was drive around the Park and take pictures of the beautiful trees covered in hoarfrost… 

seeing the hoarfrost was such a reminder of him… felt like he was sending me a message…

  
spent the afternoon with my daughter wandering through the mall… had lunch and picked up a couple of pairs of shorts…

when I got home PBS had a special of Simon & Garfunkel‘s concert in Central Park, New York City in 1981…

  
he loved Simon & Garfunkel… I spent an hour watching the program, enjoying the music and remembering… the songs had all been played here… comforting…

in recent days I have been walking down memory lane looking at many pictures… it has been fun to remember all the great times we had in the forty-three years we were together… 

what an amazing life I have had…
 

 
 

anniversary…

04 Friday Mar 2016

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took a few pictures of the orchid this morning…

  
the blossoms are now falling each day…

  
still beautiful in their own way…

wore my new jeans today and everyone loved them…

  
some of the detail on the back…

  
all day I kept trying to figure out what was making my hands blue… must have washed them a dozen times to get the colour off…

finally mentioned it, only to learn that I should have washed the jeans with salt or vinegar before wearing them the first time… it was the dye that was rubbing off on my hands, lol… clear that I am not a jean connoisseur… good thing I learned this before sitting on my couch, lol…

been thinking of my beloved more than usual… tomorrow marks four years since his death… seems to me that the week or so before the anniversary is more difficult than the actual day…

looking through photos I decided on this one for my Facebook profile picture…

  
we had spent a lovely time at the zoo with our youngest grandson and just came out of the butterfly garden… he was tired and had a seat on the lovely bench while trying to convince the little guy to join him… doesn’t he look like an angel…

I miss him…

health…

03 Thursday Mar 2016

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been thinking a lot about folks who have been dealing with health issues, either sick or injured…

so many people I know have struggled with miserable colds and flu… both of my girls were ill and got sent home on Monday… many friends are just beginning to get over various issues…

the beginning of March is a difficult time for me… can’t help but think back to the loss of my beloved… I’ve been inundated with Facebook memories of things we did in the days just before his death…

have also been working on a project where I’ve been looking through my photographs… am always surprised at how much I have forgotten and the pictures are great reminders of special moments…

  
came across this picture of a Chihuly glass fixture at 295 York… George and I had dinner there a few times when it was still the Lobby on York…

lost my parents when they were both just over 65… George’s dad died around that age and he didn’t make it to 65… for a while I have been wondering if I will make it to 65… looks like I will, lol…

I am feeling healthy and in better shape than I’ve been for years…

although there is sadness, life is good…

technology…

20 Saturday Feb 2016

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had a bit of fun shopping…

went to Henry’s and picked up the eyefi mobiPRO… staff there helped link it up to the app I had already downloaded onto my iPhone… I do love technology…

  
it is very cool…

from there we went to Urban Trail where I checked out a number of Canada Goose jackets… and then I found a gorgeous purple North Face jacket…

  
it is gorgeous… fits great and works to -10 C… it weighs about the same as a cute little vest I have that fits into a tiny bag…can hardly wait to wear it;-)…

wandered around a few other shops and headed home…

since then I’ve been playing with my Nikon and iPhone…

took these pictures in the living room…

   
 
and transferred them to my iPhone in a flash… so great to have the ability to get pictures from my camera to the phone so easily…

also enjoyed the sunshine…

  
yesterday, my Facebook showed a few memories with my beloved speaking in a video… he made a number of angels using this particular one as a sample… 

I sure do miss him and loved hearing his voice…

Valentine…

12 Friday Feb 2016

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I have celebrated all the special days of the year forever and I love doing that… miss my beloved who also enjoyed holidays, particularly Valentine’s Day… he always made sure that both of the girls and I got roses… I often wear the jacket that he gave me on our last Valentine’s day… 

had roses delivered to the office for my colleagues…

  
put them out so everyone could choose one… did it yesterday as four of them were not in today…

  
I enjoy surprising people with treats and they are an amazing group of individuals so it makes me very happy to show them how special each of them is…

  
it is always such fun to see which one each person chooses… makes me happy…

today after lunch when I got back to the office from yoga there was a card and gift on my desk…

  
the card was filled with lovely expressions of thanks from all my colleagues, and a gift certificate to Thermea…

  
what a wonderful surprise… brought me to tears… as I said, a special group of individuals…

a very special Valentine memory…

beloved…

04 Thursday Feb 2016

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missing my beloved today…

first thing the toilet was acting up… time was when I would just tell him about it and he would fix whatever the problem was…

not these days…

had to dig out the appropriate equipment and solve the problem myself…

last weekend I had to go and find a different shovel so my shoveler can get down to the cement, and salt, so he could make sure the ground isn’t crazy slippery… also had to pick up a few bulbs so I could replace some burnt out ones…

I find choosing bulbs a very difficult job… there are so many and they seem to be similar but when you get them home they don’t throw the amount of light you expect, or are the wrong strength, or colour… arghhhh…

thankfully my son-in-law helped pick them and looks like they will all work…

many days I just do whatever needs doing, but other days I can barely keep from crying because he isn’t here…

today I happened to read a blog I wrote a year ago… it was all about flowers and how they have always lifted my spirits… also talked about how my beloved made sure there were lots around during January and February…

took this picture today…

  
beautiful… does make me feel better…

starting…

23 Saturday Jan 2016

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spent the morning at MBlog 2016 with a room full of bloggers wanting to grow… many great tips on organizing and content creation… a blog is a conversation advised Kyla Roma… we spent time looking at our own blog and working through our brand and who we wanted to be having the conversation with…

  
as the speaker, Kyla kept us moving forward so that by the end we had lots of content to work with for the coming year… 

I spent time remembering that the reason I started to blog was to share some of my experiences following my husband’s death and my desire to share as I move forward in my life’s journey…

it was energizing to hear the sound of wisdom being shared and see the animated faces of the bloggers as everyone soaked up knowledge…

  
left the event filled with ideas floating around in my head…

once home I watched figure skating on tv and had a nap… hadn’t slept well last night… snow started just after I arrived home… 

  dreamt of my beloved coming in after shovelling and when I woke up thought he was in the basement watching tv… took a few moments to realize that he wasn’t… 

maybe a combination of thinking of his loss, snow falling, and the skating, brought on the dream… my neighbour and I would call one another whenever skating was on to be sure the other didn’t miss any programs… I would watch upstairs while George would watch his programs in the basement… shook me up a little…

beloved…

09 Saturday Jan 2016

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this morning I spent a bit of time in the kitchen… while I was cleaning the stove I was thinking of my beloved…

he had the strongest hands and arms… anything that needed serious scrubbing ended up as his job… that stove would have been spotless had he cleaned it, lol… he could also wring things out so there was no water at all left in them…

 
for breakfast I cooked some spinach in my new cute purple steamer… second time using it and it worked much better than the first time… cleaned up nicely as well… also used some of the frozen spinach for my lunch smoothie… came out great, so I can use frozen next time I run out of fresh, lol…

sun was shining all day, although it was -34 with the wind chill… got a nice shot of a couple of garage roofs which have squirrel paths all over them… not sure I’ve seen tracks on the neighbour’s garage before… 

  
while I was doing laundry I also went through all of the tops in my closet… filled a box with things that are too big… a friend is going to pick them up for a swap event they are having…

  
always happy when I’ve been able to do a bit of decluttering… George would have been proud…

lobster…

31 Thursday Dec 2015

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for most of our married life we would celebrate New Year’s Eve with steak and lobster… started this tradition when we were newly married with a couple of longtime friends…

I can remember the first year, before we had kids, when we were in their yard and the old style charcoal bbq melted the snow all around it… the guys were in their shirtsleeves, it was giving off so much heat…

what great fun we had… over the years we kept up the tradition with appetizers early on, and then the steak and lobster very late in the evening, usually with at least one other couple… for much of the time the girls didn’t participate as New Year’s was our adult celebration…

when the girls were adults, they started to come for the dinner before going out with their friends, so we began eating earlier so it would fit with their plans…

the last few years before George died we would spend the remainder of the evening reading or watching tv and heading to bed after the midnight glass of bubbly…

last year I decided not to have steak and lobster on New Year’s Eve and instead had it on New Year’s Day with the family… I spent a quiet evening, watched fireworks at our community club from the dining room window… tonight I could hear the fireworks at The Forks…

  

I roasted a Cornish hen with mashed potatoes and cauliflower, with a carrot and raisin salad… a lovely remembrance… for years having a Cornish hen was a special treat for the two of us… a tasty reminder of my beloved…

  
the lobster is thawing in preparation for tomorrow’s dinner… 

  
everyone in the family loves it now… not sure why we ever fed it to the little boys, lol…

likely I will be asleep at midnight…