this morning when I got up I had to search THE files to find George’s Last Will and Testament and a death certificate…

apparently they didn’t know that he had died over a year ago, even though they had happily accepted a payment from me for his 2011 taxes which clearly said regarding the estate of…

this year they sent me a cheque made out to the estate of, after we filed his final tax return…

anyway, although I have talked to numerous people in the government through this whole process I hadn’t told the right people or sent them the right documents…

I called just after 8 am our time to learn they open at 8:15… when I called back an hour later the phone was busy, and remained busy until just before 1 our time…

I spoke to a woman who advised I had to send the information to the CRA Winnipeg office… and of course it couldn’t go by email but could go by fax, sigh…

I had scanned it all into the computer thinking I would email it, but there you go…

after all that I didn’t get a minute to write the letter she wanted to go with it… first thing tomorrow I guess…

when my accountant called to tell me I had to do this, she was very apologetic about bringing all this stuff up after all this time and I said it wasn’t a problem… but amazingly it did touch a nerve and bring back the memories of was I contacting the correct people, was I giving them the correct answers to ensure I received whatever I was expecting from that particular organization… did I cross all the t’s and dot all the i’s…

it’s been a year and three months since he died and in some ways it seems like it was years ago, and in others, it seems like it was just a few days ago…

I even find it difficult to know how to say my husband recently died… now that a year has gone by, can I still say that??? feels like it to me, but I don’t know…

oh the ongoing learnings in this journey of the big girl pants…