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poppy…

06 Monday Jun 2016

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here’s how the day has gone…

when I arrived home tonight, after seven, I found the back door ajar…


cleaners were here mid afternoon… so, likely it’s been unlocked for three hours… 

I didn’t even hesitate to go in… or even bother to look around for intruders… clearly it just didn’t get closed properly…

then I looked out the window and saw this…


went out and spent a few minutes enjoying the poppy flower… it’s a beauty and may be the only one this year as I don’t see any other buds in the garden… 

the year George died there were over forty blooms… never had that many flowers before or since…

really happy that I saw it because they are usually a single day flower… might be gone tomorrow…

ups and downs, lol…

survived…

10 Tuesday Mar 2015

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recently someone was talking about how well they think I have survived these last three years… they felt that when I was with them I seemed to be managing very well, although they didn’t know how I was when I was alone…

some people put on different faces depending where they are and don’t share what is going on in their life…

for me, it really is what you see is what you get… I am the same wherever I am… if I am down I can’t cover it up… whether at work, with friends, or on my own, I can’t really hide what’s going on in my life…
some days I do great… other days are a bit difficult and some days are unbelievably painful… I think it works that way for most people…
we all have our ups and downs… on the whole, my life is full of special moments… I am so lucky to be able to spend the time to be in them…


loss…

24 Sunday Nov 2013

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spent a quiet day at home and got some chores taken care of around the house…

spent quite a while trying to find my advent calendar – 2 muffin tins with magnetic covers – which was very frustrating as I had seen it over the summer… did find the reindeer calendar, lol…  will have to actually go through each of the Christmas boxes one night this week…

spent a lovely afternoon working on a project which is coming along very nicely…

thought about friends who have recently lost parents and remembering the loss of our parents… how slowly the process of dying can be, and then how quickly it happens… thinking you are prepared and discovering that you are not at all ready… the guilt of feeling relief that the process is over… the exhaustion…

I have been feeling a bit alone for the last while… missing my beloved more, rather than less, these days…  working hard to remember all the special times with him…

last year at this time we were all focused on our family vacation to Mexico right after Christmas, and I think it helped me keep my mind off Christmas without him… this year I don’t have that distraction, so I am trying to live each moment, whether happy or sad…

finished off my fishy weekend with a lovely dinner of shrimp, left-over garlic mashed potatoes and Caesar salad…

shrimp, garlic mashed potatoes and Caesar salad...

shrimp, garlic mashed potatoes and Caesar salad…