27 Friday Sep 2019
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so this ear looks quite normal, right…
sadly it has been irritated for the last four days and even though I started on drops yesterday morning, it has been very unhappy…
feels like my headset is on all the time and I can’t hear much out of it…
couldn’t swallow yesterday so ended up not eating…
thankfully the medicine has started to work and it is not nearly as painful as it was…
but really, enough…
21 Saturday Sep 2019
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been thinking a lot of our dear friend Margaret…
she was my parents’ neighbour and our good friend since I was about fifteen…
I remember our Chinese food parties on payday Fridays… my beloved and I would go over and mom and dad would come from next door and we would have a delicious dinner…
she enjoyed the girls when they came along and loved spending time with them…
the cane I am using belonged to her…
I can remember saying to her later in her life “you have to put the cane on the ground, not just carry it”…
lovely memories…
19 Thursday Sep 2019
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2500, beloved, big girl pants, blessed, blogs, Life, memories, missing, moments, moving forward, one step at a time, time, widow
today marks my 2,500th blog post…
seems like an amazing accomplishment for me…
hard to believe that on December 1st, 2012, I started writing this blog so that I could share about the changes to my life and the things I’ve had to do following the death of my beloved…
there was such a learning curve about all the issues I have had to deal with as a widow…
it has morphed into more of a daily journal of my life and what I see around me…
it is also hard to realize that my beloved has been gone for 7 1/2 years – that’s 90 months – 2,751 days… an instant… forever…
although I am truly blessed, I sure do miss him…
18 Wednesday Sep 2019
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big girl pants, blessed, blink, cane, difficulties, ER, health, knee, moments, recovery, slow, walk, widow
been pondering how life can change in the blink of an eye…
there I was on Saturday, going for a walk, and then suddenly unable to walk…
luckily I am recovering very nicely, but spending five hours in the Emergency Room and having to use crutches for just three days has opened my eyes to difficulties that others face…
I expect a full recovery… I am now using a cane, but just for a short while, as my knee improves… and I’m able to take the time to recover properly…
of course I have to remember to take it slow and steady, lol…
16 Monday Sep 2019
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simple cup of tea you say… not so much…
wore a small purse to hold my phone, the cup that wasn’t quite empty and the garbage from my lunch…
only used one crutch so I could carry the thermos back… and in the purse I carried sweetener, the empty cup, a can of the milk I use, along with the opener for it…
going to the kitchen, boiling the kettle, gathering the other items and returning to the bedroom takes a huge amount of energy…
but did that first cup of tea ever taste delicious;-)…
amazing what you can figure out when needed, lol…
although I still need someone to come and deal with the spider in the bathtub…
10 Tuesday Sep 2019
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back to it, big girl pants, dark, early, Google Home, share, widow
so… all summer I woke up in the morning and the light from outside was enough to start my day…
now I am talking to Google so she can turn on the lights, advise the temperature in the house, share information about the weather and the drive to work…
as I leave the house I have to remember to tell her I am out of here so she turns everything off, or down, for the day…
feels too soon to be back into this practice…
23 Friday Aug 2019
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Monday I considered turning on the bedroom light when I first got up…
there is less light every day, sigh… this is always one of the sadder happenings mid August…
at night I am now turning on the lights that run along the bannister on the stairs… those lights haven’t been on for months…
time is flying by more and more quickly…
although later in the evening I did enjoy spending a few minutes at the window as I was going downstairs to watch the solar lights start twinkling on… arrived at just the right moment;-)…
have to celebrate the little things…
22 Thursday Aug 2019
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something happened recently that instantly brought back a very bad time in my life…
we always think we are over it, but the simplest thing can take us back in time in a flash and we relive the memories…
it is going to take some time to recover from the feelings that have resurfaced…
one step at a time on the journey…
21 Wednesday Aug 2019
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was thinking of people I’ve known who always seemed to have a dark cloud hanging over them…
feels like that is happening to a few of those in my circles.. lots of struggles and loss…
missing my beloved… this photo reminds me of a place where we would always find peace and serenity together…
working on how best to be present for those struggling…
20 Tuesday Aug 2019
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big girl pants, draw, English Garden, garden, Leo Mol Sculpture Garden, lilies, pond, water, water lilies, widow
spent a lot of time with the water lilies in the Gardens… went from one to another, viewing and taking pictures… many of them had tiny frogs sitting on the lily pads…
water has always been important to me and it always draws me in…
wasn’t sure that the two lilies in my pond were going to have flowers, but I remained hopeful…
and this morning I spotted a bud;-)… woo hoo… excited to see the flower…
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