my neighbour of over thirty years lost her forty-year old son to cancer a few days ago…  I cannot imagine her pain…

I spent a few minutes with her and we talked about the sadness but also the need to go on, one step at a time…  a friend of hers was there and my neighbour mentioned that my husband had died a few months ago… it is nearly a year but time passes so quickly…  she will be fine, like me, moving forward and doing what needs to be done…

for me there is no choice…  I work at seeing the good in things around me, remembering the best and looking forward with hope…

I ordered roses for my girls and did very well until I was asked what the card should say… then the tears began to flow and I could hardly speak… both of the florists I spoke with were very compassionate, patiently waiting until I could speak again… the cards said – remembering daddy…

no matter what else was going on he always made sure that each of them got a rose for Valentine’s Day to be sure they knew how much he loved them…  what a romantic he was… I miss him so…

had quite the up and down day today…  woke up very early thinking about George and wishing he was here…  at work, I delivered flowers to one of my colleagues and was feeling a bit sorry for myself because I wouldn’t be getting any…

cupids, making their delivery…

then I was called out of a meeting to deal with a situation at the front…  it was two cupids singing and playing a cute song as they delivered a heart-shaped cinnamon bun and chocolate heart…

In the heart of winter you may feel like an icicle – but your heart can be warmed with this message by bicycle – let there be no questions or shades of grey – your kids wish you a happy valentine’s day – so ignore the quality of singer or song – just know that with us, you can do no wrong.

treats…

it was our soup day so I had a lovely lunch with some of my colleagues – Thai Coconut Curry soup and sugar cookies – some very pretty ones that Crystal dropped off, and some rather strange looking ones that I made last night…

after work Crystal and I went to look at cars and consider whether I should upgrade… then we went to The Keg, where we met up with Jeff and had a lovely dinner…  steak and lobster for me, yum…

finally I got dropped off at home and charged into the house on a mission to get the garbage and recycling out for tomorrow’s pick-up…

on the floor I spot…

what the…

and followed along…

up the table…

where I discovered a cute card from all the kids…

… your “Lots of Love Club”!

as I sit here writing, and drinking a small glass of Baileys, I can look over and see the chocolate hearts, which I have not yet moved, lol… pretty great kids…

what a day… filled with tears and laughter as I move forward in this new reality…