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peace…

26 Thursday Apr 2018

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it was exciting to get to visit the Peace Tower while we were in Ottawa, but also sad…

the last time I was in the Parliament Buildings was over 40 years ago ago…

at that time you just walked in and looked around…

now you have to go through security twice, once outside the building and then again inside…

there are security guards everywhere and many parts of the building are blocked off…

sad commentary on the world we live in…

roof…

19 Saturday Aug 2017

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rather sad today…

this was the scene from yesterday… the back side of the house is done but not the front, although apparently it is water tight…

was looking forward to it being all finished this afternoon… they told me they would be here around nine this morning…

this is what the roof looks like now, sigh…

they never came and their stuff is all over the yard so I can’t even sit out and enjoy the garden…

I’m fairly sure they aren’t going to come tomorrow and Monday’s forecast is for rain…

feeling rather grumpy and wishing my beloved was here to sort this all out…

down…

26 Wednesday Oct 2016

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for the last few weeks I have been feeling down… 

missing my beloved a lot… usually when I am struggling with missing him I can spot the triggers… a date… a particular activity…

can’t put my finger on anything in particular right now… and I think that makes it worse…

this morning it was dark when I left for work… and when I checked online it showed the sun rose at 8:09 am and set at 6:15 pm…

so it really is getting darker all the time, sigh… light affects me a lot, or lack of it…

and of course the overcast skies and rain don’t help much either…

find that I sleep more as it gets darker… maybe I want to hibernate, lol…

have been taking vitamin D for the last few weeks and think I need to start using my SAD light on a regular basis…

light and shadow on a lisianthus in the English Garden

funk…

02 Monday May 2016

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been thinking of people I know who are struggling with health issues and loss…

brought back so many memories of when George died and the difficult period following…

makes me quiet and rather sad… not really how I like to be…

  
even the beautiful morning sky couldn’t bring me out of this little funk…

as I think of my friends I am also going to focus on the beauty around me…

  

traditions…

03 Thursday Dec 2015

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drinking a cup of tea and thinking about our family traditions over the years… I like to celebrate everything I can, lol… holidays, birthdays, special events in our lives… usually with a family dinner…

  
one tradition has been around birthdays… on your birthday you get to choose what to have for dinner, and the family gathers to celebrate… on the day and always with gifts of course… 

used to involve making the favourite food – roast chicken, mashed potatoes and stuffing; homemade macaroni and cheese; all the way to steak and lobster…  but over the years we have also brought in favourites, or even gone out for dinner… 

  
tomorrow marks the fourth birthday celebration for George since he died…

the tradition for his birthday now involves burgers from a local joint topped off with milkshakes and apple pie… all of which were his favourite foods… the kids who aren’t here join us by skype or FaceTime and we share memories over dinner…

you’d think after nearly four years that it would be easier, but I have felt myself moving into a sad place over the last few days… I make sure to focus on the good times as much as I can, but I still miss him so much and have moments of deep sadness… I embrace them as well as the good ones…

tonight both of my girls have checked in to see what our plan is and to let me know, in their own way, that they know it is hard for me… and I know it is hard for them…

  

sad…

05 Thursday Nov 2015

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this morning I took this shot of the living room at ten to eight…

  
it is very sad how dark it is in the morning… this is partly due to the fact that the lights are turning off an hour early… will have my son-in-law reprogram them when he is here next, lol…

besides being dark, it has been cold, rainy and overcast, for what seems like forever…

  
been leaving the light on the stove on when I leave home so it isn’t dark when I come into the house after work… how sad is that…

have my S.A.D. light at work and turning it on for a while every morning… hope it will help with the blahs…

  
today I was struck with sadness over the loss of my beloved… it is three years and eight months since his death, but for some reason today it was like it was yesterday… the day jumped out at me…

code…

29 Thursday Oct 2015

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the lack of light is starting to affect me…

it is dark in the morning when I get up and get ready for work… and gets dark soon after I get home… as well, it was dull and overcast all day…

took this picture of my beautiful orchid and my little pumpkin person that my sister-in-law made for me many years ago…

  
it was early this morning and the light really wasn’t bright enough to get a good shot…

last night for supper I had chicken with brussel sprouts and potato… very tasty although the brussel sprouts were a bit Cajun… that was a code word in our house for when George burned something, usually on the barbecue, lol…

  
bit more of that dark, lol… 

might be a bit lighter in the mornings for a while as the clocks turn back an hour on Saturday night…

think I must take my SAD light into the office and start using it again…

dark…

08 Thursday Oct 2015

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first thing this morning when I went out to the car it was dark…

  
really dark… it was extra early as we had an event first thing…

found the darkness a bit sad… a reminder that soon it will be cold and dark so much of the time…

  
the good part of it all was that the traffic was light, lol…

couldn’t tell what the weather was going to be like… did have the heat on in the car which was nice…

was thinking it was going to rain but it didn’t during the day…

on the drive home it was overcast and did spit a bit…

 the traffic was light again, as I got to leave early…

excellent start to my long Thanksgiving weekend…

light…

28 Friday Aug 2015

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early this morning I was forced to turn on lights because it was dark, sigh… as I was getting ready for work, thunder and lightning were filling the sky…

  
a few minutes before I had to leave, I ran outside and got this picture of the morning glory blossoms…

  
apparently the storm did a number on them…

got a nice picture of the dahlia… been thinking I might cut them and bring them into the house… so beautiful…

  
after work sat outside and was checking my phone when something crossed my vision and hovered in front of the basket of flowers just four feet from me… took a few seconds to realize what it was… a tiny hummingbird… it moved and hovered over the hot tub for another few seconds before flying off… needed to go in and finish dinner, but couldn’t leave the chair in case it came back…

  
finished off the day with a light ice cream cupcake… it’s been in the freezer for a couple of weeks and really felt like I needed to get it out of there…

ten to nine and it is dark…

going to have to take my SAD light to the office next week and start turning it on…

but, it is the weekend and I am going to enjoy every minute of it…

light…

07 Wednesday Jan 2015

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Shelmerdine spent weeks working on a corner of the Millennium Library Park as the weather turned cold and the snow began to fall… we think part of the construction was a pad for food trucks to park on, but we won’t know until Spring comes… this portion is right behind our building…

the other thing we noticed was balls hanging from the trees…

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they weren’t lit for quite a while but about a week ago they started to light up the area… got this shot on the way into the office this morning… still rather dark as you can see…

have been using my SAD light and I think it is helping keep me happier…

came home a bit later tonight and did notice that it is staying a bit lighter in the evening…

looking forward to each additional minute of light…