lots done in the garden today… also fit in a nap and some sports on tv…
been thinking a lot of my journey lately and missing my beloved…
with over four years on my own some things are coming more easily… eating out on my own… something I would not do for any reason in the before time… getting more and more comfortable doing that… shopping on my own… doing things with the car, like taking it for gas and to get washed, lol…
working in the garden on my own… George was the one who executed so many of my ideas… he also did a lot of the work in the garden… I would do the planting in pots, but he would often do the digging and heavy work and the maintenance… I can mow the grass but also appreciate when others do it…
he was also the weeder… he’d spend time in the garage (lots of time!) and then vanish into an area of the garden and pull weeds… I did not realize how much time he spent doing that, lol…
I miss him in the morning, I miss him during the day, I miss him after work, I miss him in the hot tub and I miss him at night…
I miss talking to him, reviewing the day, getting his opinion… today I don’t think I spoke except on the phone with my daughter for a few minutes… I miss the sound of another person in the house…
the garden misses him too, I think…
maybe it is the season, or spending time in the garden… not sure exactly what it is, but missing him so much… will continue to feel my way through…
