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27 Tuesday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, celebration of life, George, memorial, missing, new life, widow

rough day today…

attended a celebration of life with my colleagues… it was lovely…

gatherings like these are always hard for everyone… for me, they bring up the people who are missing in my life…

I’ve been thinking back to the day of George’s memorial… the stress as we all got ready in the house… the meltdowns, the tears… worrying about how the little boys would manage and not wanting them to have a bad memory of the day…

staying calm as the program took place and making sure that everyone was looked after… so many details and people to speak with…

and then it was over… and my new life began…

filled…

26 Monday Feb 2018

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flowers, flowers, everywhere…

had roses delivered to the office this morning for the staff members who were away on Valentine’s Day… had to laugh because they were nicer than the ones we had… these ones came with greenery and glitter, lol…

and shortly after that our Manitoba Lung Association fundraiser tulips were delivered… the office was filled with beauty…

every day the sky is filled with light which lasts longer and is brighter, and to have flowers on top of that just makes me happy…

closing…

25 Sunday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, ceremony, closing, daughter, Olympics, pictures, sunny, warming huts, widow

up very early to watch the Closing Ceremony of the Olympics and then I went back to sleep for a while;-)…

when I finally got up the sun was shining and I took a few fun pictures… the reflection on the water lily installation, the glittering snow, and when we arrived back home, the interesting cloud formation…

this afternoon I met the kids at The Forks and we went for a walk along the River Trail to check out some of the warming huts… they are all interesting architecturally, but warming might be a stretch to describe them, lol…

here are some pictures that I took…

here are some great shots from my daughter…

home for supper and now watching the rerun of the Closing Ceremony… possibly I slept through some of it this morning…

pieces…

24 Saturday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, dad, family, love, picture, pieces, remembering, widow

recently I’ve been thinking of my dad…

many in my circles are struggling with parental illness and loss…

which has brought me to the place of thinking of the end of my dad’s time on earth…

he was a very special person and I loved him to pieces…

he was in Deer Lodge Hospital for quite a while as Mom couldn’t care for him properly at home any longer…

I visited him every day… the hospital is close to home so it just took minutes to get there… it was a busy time in our lives… the girls were in elementary school and I spent a great deal of time volunteering as well as looking after them…

when I think back I can remember very little of what happened… I was with dad when he died… I remember that… I don’t remember much else of the next few days… I think I went to pieces inside, although that wasn’t visible on the outside…

I do remember that the afternoon of his memorial the kids were in the car on their own, which they weren’t supposed to do, and it rolled down the driveway and across the street hitting our neighbour’s classic car… thank goodness no one was hurt because it was a beautiful spring day and there were tons of kids playing out there…

interesting because that’s all I can remember…

this is the last picture that we took of him…

without his teeth in, lol…

adorable…

23 Friday Feb 2018

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adorable, African Violet, big girl pants, delicious, flowers, grilled cheese, tgif, widow

tgif… always seems strange to me how long four day weeks after a holiday are… you’d think the week would fly by, but no…

was very excited to see these adorable African violet flowers which I discovered at my desk this afternoon…

the plant was turned so I hadn’t noticed the flowers until I moved it… makes me happy…

since yesterday I’ve been thinking of the grilled cheese and onion sandwich that I was going to have for my dinner from the last of the sourdough rye bread I picked up at the bakery…

it was delicious…

trimmed…

22 Thursday Feb 2018

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started my day with this lovely shot in the living room… these flowers have been blooming since February 5th when I picked them up…

trimmed them down and tossed a few out but they still look fabulous…

then it was off to La Belle Baguette where I collected two types of bread for today’s Souper Thursday… chose a loaf of French and a Rye Sourdough… and finally three different tarts to share… yum…

this bakery is way too close to home, lol… in the summer I would walk over on Saturday or Sunday to pick up a treat…

on my way home I stopped in and got a hair cut… great to have it trimmed up… still has lots of purple in it…

flowers, tasty treats and fresh hair… pretty good day…

fishy…

21 Wednesday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, boys, clean, fish, fishy, kids, widow

when the kids come over on Sunday the boys cleaned the tank, filters and added water…

got this shot of the fish eating in their freshly cleaned home…

you can really see how big the largest one has gotten…

that tail goes on forever…

smiling…

20 Tuesday Feb 2018

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beloved, big girl pants, flower therapy, healing, in the moment, joy, music, sadness, smiling, sun dogs, sunflower, widow

this morning the Flower Therapy card that I selected was a sunflower and advised that smiling was healing and made you feel better…

I often bop around in the car as I drive to and from work listening to the radio and dancing along with the music… it makes me smile as I wonder what the people in the other cars are thinking…

as I was heading home my joy ornament was glittering in the sunlight….

brought a smile to my face…

and that was right after driving towards the very bright sun dogs in the sky…

there was lots to smile about today… and it did make me feel better…

as the date of my beloved’s passing looms closer I am trying to give myself the space to be in the moment and let the sadness come and go as needed…

smug…

19 Monday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, chicken soup, curry, lunch, prep, smug, widow

had some fun in the kitchen today…

made chicken soup from last night’s leftovers…

late this afternoon also made red lentil curry with rice…

feeling rather smug now that I have lunch organized for the whole week…

muffins…

18 Sunday Feb 2018

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big girl pants, chocolate, grandson, meals, muffins, Olympics, shortbread, smoothie, stuffing, widow

the weekend sure makes watching the Olympics easier…

wake up around 4 am, watch whatever is on and go back to sleep for another few hours… rise and have a relaxing breakfast and watch what I might have missed earlier… nap if needed, and repeat…

I ate especially well today, as I knew there was roast chicken dinner on the menu…

breakfast smoothie and hard boiled eggs with shredded cucumbers for lunch…

ran out for a quick grocery shop and then back to the Olympics…

prepped the stuffing for the chicken and was sure to have enough to make stuffing muffins for my youngest grandson… they are his favourite, lol…

sadly, he wasn’t feeling well so didn’t have any dinner but he did take some home for later…

ended my day with a couple of shortbread cookies that a friend made for me and a small piece of dark chocolate… the cookies reside in the freezer and this was the first time I’ve had any… mmm, delicious reminder of Christmas…

now to watch the ice dance short program…

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