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benches…

03 Friday Jun 2016

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what a wonderful morning…

walked to the Park and met my buddy… we had a lovely wander through the English and Leo Mol Gardens…


I do like Bleeding Hearts but don’t seem able to grow them, no matter where I put them…


a peony starting to open… made me think of the peonies that we dug out of our front flower bed when we moved into the house… I dislike ants and therefore didn’t want the peony bushes which are usually covered in them… discovered later that they were prize winners, lol…


the benches are back, and they are new… we sat and visited for a while on mine – well the one that my beloved and I would always rest on when we walked through the Gardens…

every time I am in the Gardens there are new plantings and things to see… great to be making regular visits and seeing the constant changes…


a momma duck and her babies popped into the water as we were circling the Duck Pond… so cute…


took a number of pics of lilacs… actually  one of every four, lol… quite a few were in the Gardens, but also saw them on my way to and from the Park…

they smell delicious… and they’re purple…

feeling…

22 Sunday May 2016

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lots done in the garden today… also fit in a nap and some sports on tv…


been thinking a lot of my journey lately and missing my beloved…

with over four years on my own some things are coming more easily… eating out on my own… something I would not do for any reason in the before time… getting more and more comfortable doing that… shopping on my own… doing things with the car, like taking it for gas and to get washed, lol…

working in the garden on my own… George was the one who executed so many of my ideas… he also did a lot of the work in the garden… I would do the planting in pots, but he would often do the digging and heavy work and the maintenance… I can mow the grass but also appreciate when others do it…

he was also the weeder… he’d spend time in the garage (lots of time!) and then vanish into an area of the garden and pull weeds… I did not realize how much time he spent doing that, lol…

I miss him in the morning, I miss him during the day, I miss him after work, I miss him in the hot tub and I miss him at night…

I miss talking to him, reviewing the day, getting his opinion… today I don’t think I spoke except on the phone with my daughter for a few minutes… I miss the sound of another person in the house…

the garden misses him too, I think…


maybe it is the season, or spending time in the garden… not sure exactly what it is, but missing him so much… will continue to feel my way through…

evaporation…

17 Tuesday May 2016

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tonight I found some tadpoles in the pond after I finished filling it up…


very exciting because we were worried that they had just vanished… guess the fish will be staying in the condo a bit longer as we wait for frogs to be big enough not to be eaten by them, lol…

took nearly an hour to fill the pond up, which shows how low it was…


I’m starting to think that maybe it really is evaporation and the wide waterfall that is leading to the water loss…

tonight as I was working around the garden I was missing my beloved a great deal…


maybe it is Spring, not sure really… continue to feel lonely these days…

walked a few blocks on my way home and came across these lilacs which are just starting to open… brought back memories of our oldest daughter’s wedding… she loves lilacs…


looking forward to the delicious smell in the next week or so, as there are a number of lilac bushes close by…

a beautiful day with a few opportunities to spend time outside… hoping that the warmer weather stays around…

it has been so cold that I turned the heat back on in the bathroom floor…


not going to turn it off for a while…

family…

15 Sunday May 2016

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up early and enjoyed time in the hot tub… missing my beloved today… not always sure why it is more pronounced some days, but have learned to just feel my way through it…

happily was able to meet the kids for brunch… really miss them when we can’t get together on the weekend…

before I left the house I took some pictures of various blooms…


these are the last two flowers on the orchid which came from IKEA in October… was so thrilled to see a new stem starting with tiny buds on it…

then I moved the mandevilla and mini roses to the dining room table, where the light shone on them nicely…


decided to start walking to the restaurant and meet the kids on the way… lots of yellow flowers happily growing everywhere I looked, lol…


also saw quite a few blooming bleeding hearts on my walk…


once we got home took a few shots of the boys…

while we were visiting, my daughter spotted these feathered friends at the feeder…


very exciting… maybe the weather is going to warm up and we will see more of them…

ended the day with a phone call from my Ottawa daughter…

family is so special… happy to have opportunities to spend time with them…

thinking…

21 Thursday Apr 2016

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today would have been my friend’s forty-eighth birthday…

she would have loved my new Fitbit bracelet…

sure do miss her…

a week ago I was finishing packing for our trip to New York…

 

Central Park, New York…photo J Noordman

 
brought to mind all of the people who have gone from my life – parents, in-laws, friends… my beloved…

been thinking about how each of them have influenced and shaped me into who I am…

how blessed I’ve been to have such special people in my life…

Japanese Maple ready to go into the garden…

Easter…

27 Sunday Mar 2016

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woke up to a phone call from my grandkids wishing me a Happy Easter at 7:30 in the morning, lol… they were very excited to share all about the treats they discovered around their house…

then I went downstairs and on the way spotted the bunny outside…

  

must have just been getting home from all those deliveries…
 
last night I decorated the living room… even put some tulips into the bathroom…
  

flowers make me happy… finished the dining room and set the table for dinner… 

had picked up pencil crayons, colouring books and a few reading books for the boys which I put into the glass drawers in the living room table, along with more of the cute chocolate bunnies from the fundraiser…

  
amazingly, while I was sleeping, the Easter Bunny put mini eggs all over the table and elsewhere on the main floor…

missing my beloved… he had a great connection with the Easter Bunny and the two of them always made sure to find good hiding places for treats…

had a very quiet day as my throat has been sore for a while and I’m trying to rest up and get rid of it… lots of people have been struggling with miserable colds/flu…

kids came, searched and found all of the eggs… we had a lovely lamb roast for our dinner… didn’t realize that daddy wasn’t fond of lamb… oops… maybe that’s why we haven’t had it before… next year we’ll have ham, lol…

  
bit of trouble getting a good photo and some were wondering when they could actually eat… 

after dinner my son-in-law went off to work and the rest of the family headed home…

I am climbing into bed…

flowers…

25 Friday Mar 2016

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woke up to snow on the ground this morning… really, lol… it was lovely because I didn’t have to go outside into it… 

  
there was also a beautiful moon…

  
spent the entire day in my jammies taking it easy… 

did walk for half an hour on the treadmill and made zucchini basil soup… I might be a bit addicted to that one…

the whole house is permeated with the smell from the hyacinth… so I took a few pictures of all the flowers in the house today…

  
the light was wonderful in the dining room…

  
the sunlight on them was lovely… 

and finally I got a picture of the sun streaming into the living room…

  
so happy to have the flowers filling the house…

they make me happy… 

remembering my beloved who would make sure I had lots around, particularly at this time of the year…

learning…

17 Thursday Mar 2016

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been learning new things in the last few days and am pretty pleased with myself, lol…

I figured out how to change the clock in the car… 

 

pretty simple actually… I would never have been able to do that before…

even better was the fact that I sorted out the remote in the basement… 

  
there are three down there but the middle one is the special one which does everything except pour tea… 

of course the problem has always been that if it wasn’t set on the tv I could never get it back there… it is also connected to the Wii and a video player and Netflix and I’m not sure what else… 

the little boys change it over to the Wii sometimes and forget to put it back… then I struggle for ages trying to get the morning show to come on that I watch as I walk on the treadmill… end up calling my kids to walk me through the process to get it working again…

this time my son-in-law thought there might be something wrong with the remote itself…

after a bit of work I figured out how to open the back, find appropriate batteries, change them and get the cover back on…

then it couldn’t find the tv… finally figured out that I needed to use one of the other remotes to set the input to the proper thing…

and it worked… did it all myself…

my beloved would have been so proud…

entertaining…

14 Monday Mar 2016

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had a wonderful day…

began with making my favourite zucchini basil soup for tonight’s dinner…

  

took the time to take pictures of each step in the process…

  
turned out great… as I worked on each step I thought of the people coming for dinner and how lovely it will be to see them and spend time together…

the hardest part of making this is finding the basil and zucchini at the same time… much simpler in the summer, lol…

had the screen door open as I was working on the soup… was so beautiful, decided to eat my lunch on the deck and read for a bit… the sun was so warm…

  
set the table and went for a walk…

  
planned the dinner with St. Patrick’s day in mind, thus the green soup, lol… enjoyed preparing it as I don’t do much entertaining these days…

made a huge garden salad and shredded a bbq rotisserie chicken to go along with the soup and some fresh bread… the salad reminded me of my beloved’s wonderful salads… have not been able to recreate them…

also set up our conversation spot to focus on lean-to/support to go along with a program one of the group had sent everyone…

  
took the last few minutes before their arrival to sit and relax…

dinner was enjoyed by everyone, and we had some thoughtful conversation…

touch…

10 Thursday Mar 2016

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got a great shot of a squirrel yesterday morning having a snack in the garden…

  
this morning I was up even earlier and watched a bunny crossing the street but didn’t get a picture… the exciting thing was that it was light out when I headed downtown at seven…

did take a few pics of the orchid which still looks pretty good… trying not to touch it which might cause one of the blossoms to drop off…

  
have spent a fair amount of time over the last few days remembering the day of my beloved’s memorial service… it was four years ago today…

all of us getting ready together was rather stressful… 

making it through the gathering was painful and I was barely able to move as my body reacted to the distress of the day and my health issues…

having the opportunity to speak with everyone who came to celebrate his life was awe inspiring and very comforting…

arriving home to discover that someone had hit a borrowed vehicle and driven away without even leaving a note…

can’t actually remember the evening…

such a painFULL time… 

am pleased with how well we have come through these days/months/years… each of us is moving forward and supporting one another…

we  talk about George/Daddy/Grandpa often… I don’t want anyone to forget him and his impact on us and everyone who he touched…

we are and have been blessed…