26 Tuesday Mar 2024
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since the girls were born, I’ve been giving them books for birthdays and holidays… I’ve done the same for my grandkids, but now we’ve worked up to gift cards as it isn’t clear what they might like to read…
now I don’t really have anyone to buy books for, but I have a new neighbour who has just turned two, so I’m getting books for him now…
it is such fun to buy little people books…
30 Sunday Sep 2018
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I’ve been thinking about September… it has been a good month for me… as a kid I always liked starting school… and as a parent I also enjoyed when the girls headed back to school….
I started with my current employment on September 30, 2009…
following an eight week time away with pancreatitis and gall bladder surgery, I returned to work on September 28, 2010…
after a second surgery and being away from work for ten weeks, I returned September 27, 2012…
hadn’t realized how close those dates were until Facebook reminded me of the above facts…
usually the weather is beautiful as the leaves slowly change colour… this year there’s been a lot more rain and temperatures have plummeted…
one of the things I miss is the fall drive that my beloved and I would often take to enjoy the colours…
happily for me the sun is peeking out of the clouds off and on today;-)…
05 Monday Mar 2018
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two thousand one hundred and ninety-one days since my beloved left me…
you would think that six years would make it easier…
some days it does seem a little easier… many days it doesn’t…
I do things that I’d never done before and I do them well… those big girl pants and all… but I would much rather have him beside me…
I continue to try to remember the good times and focus on them rather than feel sorry for myself… although there are certainly times when I wallow…
I’ve learned to feel those moments and sit in them and not push them aside… I believe that has helped me move forward…
as I write this the tears fall… over the last few weeks I’ve have been reminded of the days when George died and the memorial that followed… it has been very stress-filled as I have been reliving the hours and days immediately following his death…
thinking back to the police arriving at the door and my friends going with me to the hospital… not being told he had died, but walking into the room where his body was… calling my girls, and others… signing a form so that they could harvest his organs… going home to a house without him…
hard days… but today I got chocolate in the mail and bought myself a bouquet of flowers to make me smile;-)…
one step at a time on the journey…
03 Thursday Dec 2015
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drinking a cup of tea and thinking about our family traditions over the years… I like to celebrate everything I can, lol… holidays, birthdays, special events in our lives… usually with a family dinner…
one tradition has been around birthdays… on your birthday you get to choose what to have for dinner, and the family gathers to celebrate… on the day and always with gifts of course…
used to involve making the favourite food – roast chicken, mashed potatoes and stuffing; homemade macaroni and cheese; all the way to steak and lobster… but over the years we have also brought in favourites, or even gone out for dinner…
tomorrow marks the fourth birthday celebration for George since he died…
the tradition for his birthday now involves burgers from a local joint topped off with milkshakes and apple pie… all of which were his favourite foods… the kids who aren’t here join us by skype or FaceTime and we share memories over dinner…
you’d think after nearly four years that it would be easier, but I have felt myself moving into a sad place over the last few days… I make sure to focus on the good times as much as I can, but I still miss him so much and have moments of deep sadness… I embrace them as well as the good ones…
tonight both of my girls have checked in to see what our plan is and to let me know, in their own way, that they know it is hard for me… and I know it is hard for them…
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