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murky…

29 Thursday Dec 2022

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it has been a quiet few days here…

time has been spent watching bunnies and birds and squirrels through various windows…

but in the house there has been a problem with one of the fish tanks… it has been very murky… I’ve tried a few things without success…

Wednesday was spent taking about a quarter of the water out of the tank, deep cleaning the pump and filters and finally, adding fresh water…

yesterday I could see the difference… and I was very pleased with how clear the water is so far…

excited to see if it gets even better over the next few days…

lid…

30 Saturday Apr 2022

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it took me three days and a number of tools to get the lid off of this pail of fish food flakes…

I removed the plastic band around it and then tried to pry open the top…

no matter how I yanked and pulled, it would not open…

by that time I was out of food for the fish and was hoping my neighbour might turn up in their driveway and I could ask for help… no such luck…

desperate, I used a bottle opener and a butter knife and circled the top, one inch at a time…

finally I was able to pull it off;-)…

gave the fish some food and prepared to package it into small bags that hold as much as my small jar…

with breaks it took most of the day to get seventeen bags organized…

they will go into the freezer and come out one at a time as I need them…

whew, those big girl pants…

dry…

03 Tuesday Aug 2021

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was watering the plants when I spotted movement in the pond…

when I looked more closely, I realized that a dragonfly was struggling in the water…

I was able to get it out of the water and set it down where it could dry out…

it wasn’t moving so I thought that it took too long to lift it out…

I checked on it a few times and it was very still…

later I went over, and happily, it had flown away;-)…

yay;-)…

poppyseed…

04 Wednesday Mar 2020

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was recently enjoying a Sweet Kale salad… I’d picked up a large bag at Costco and had been eating it over a week or so…

it comes with a poppyseed dressing and reminded me of the first time I had poppyseeds…

my beloved and I had announced our engagement and his best friend’s parents invited us over for a special dinner…

the first course was a poppyseed soup… it was the only item I remember from the entire meal… can’t even remember if it was cold or hot, lol…

my taste buds did not enjoy it at all and I can remember struggling to get it down, because in those days, when someone made you something special you ate it, lol…

I don’t think I’ve eaten anything else with poppyseeds in it until this particular salad, which I’ve been eating for a few years and quite enjoy…

cashier…

14 Sunday Jul 2019

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struggled with a headache through the night and this morning… really difficult to get up and moving…

eventually I dragged myself out to get some groceries…

last time I was there the cashier did a very poor job of packing my groceries…

today as the cashier was ringing up my purchases he was being careful with putting things into the bags and I mentioned the poor job by the last cashier…

he shared that he had been working on his packing skills…

he asked if I’d put in a complaint and I said it wasn’t worth the effort as nothing was ruined… he also mentioned that if anything was, the company would replace it…

at the end of my order he reduced my bill by $10 using a gift card…

what great customer service;-)…

pants…

04 Sunday Feb 2018

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wearing those big girl pants a lot recently…

met with my finance guy and reviewed my portfolio… we discussed when I might need to begin removing funds from my RRSPs and how long the money will last…

it is complicated as the whole thing is a guessing game about how long I will live and need the money…

thinking how blessed I am that I have these problems as there are so many out there whose struggle with finances is much more difficult…

sure do miss my beloved during these times… feels a lot less stressful when there are two of you dealing with these issues…

struggle…

02 Friday Jun 2017

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not sure what is going on but I am really struggling with getting the garden planted and cleaned up…

feeling bad for the new neighbours who appear to be gardeners… at this point my yard is the bad one, sigh…

the front looks like a dandelion forest… got some feelers out to find someone to come and mow and whippersnip on a regular basis…

I’ve got all these lovely plants and have had to force myself to get them into the appropriate pot…

this is all I managed today… still have a number that need to be dealt with in the garden and haven’t even picked up plants for the front beds…

was nice to have my frog friend show up…

and tonight the fish even came out of hiding for a while…

feeling overwhelmed and missing my beloved… five years and it feels like yesterday…

sometimes…

16 Thursday Feb 2017

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been a rough few days… many reasons… waiting on test results… various changes around me… missing my beloved… mental struggles…

tonight I got a beautiful card in the mail…

great timing… needed a bit of a confidence boost…

and then I walked by the window and saw this…

there is always beauty out there… sometimes I need a brief reminder…

it is so easy to get caught in a downward spiral of sadness…